Final Conclusions.

Like I said, I just want to live my life in peace. That's all I ever wanted to do since I was a young man, a child even. Live my life in peace and have some quality of life. But people in my life always had other plans. And now all I want to do is again, live my life in peace and find some quality of life. Try to recover all those years, that all those disgusting people stole from me that way. Years of worry and fearing for my safety and thinking I'd spend the rest of my life in pain. That's all I want now, with the limited time they have left me with. But once again they have other ideas. They still won't admit what is going on, this secret guardianship arrangement, the secret order for me to take that dangerous drug. And then I learn last year that my legal guardian Eric has issued orders that I continue taking that damaging Olanzapine. Even though even a small amount will probably continue to damage me. Like I said, even criminals have more rights than I do. Even in medicine. I was reading online that even with dangerous sex offenders they are careful how they medicate them when they give them things like chemical castration. They are careful that there is no chance that it would ever cause cancer. Even if they are free and out of prison, even if they have proven their danger to society, even if they are guilty of a serious crime. I am none of those things and I have done none of those things, and yet I hold a status lower than the lowest criminal. And on top of it all they won't even tell me the reason why. The reason why they did this to me, the reason why they continue to do this to me. But like I said, this time unlike 1988 I won't allow them to think that I deserve it for some reason. I am a good person and I deserve good things in life. Good things whether they are the inexpensive things that I enjoy or even if they were more expensive things. They're the ones that belong locked away somewhere.