Final Conclusions.

Like I said, no progress is being made here at all. And even if I was told it was, I could never believe it, I would never know. We should always be able to trust the validity of the documents we sign and the things we are told in that area, our rights, our legal status, etc. I read online that there is no exception to that rule, not even the most extreme. And yet they did that to me, and they hid the damage they were doing to me for years, decades even. They have shown what kind of people they are that they could do such a thing. And medical personnel and others who we think we can trust took part in it, while the public had no idea. Like I said, all I know is I will keep exposing and bringing up those three talking points for the rest of my life. There is a record of all of that, and shows some of their worst abuse and worst behavior. Also, speaking of one of those talking points, I forgot to bring up how they were abusing me again and how it could lead to my having thoughts of desperation again when I was inpatient recently. Like I said, I am not suicidal. I have always had a strong will to live and enjoy life. But I think that might be the reason or one of the reasons why they withhold information from me. Because of the times they led me to desperation. I was severely mentally abused since childhood, and starting in my adulthood, I still don't know all the details, people were deliberately making me believe some horrible fate awaited me. It was several things, but always on the subject of unbearable pain that would never end. Like I've said, my 2011 therapist and recent former therapist confirmed that is exactly what was going on. I still don't know what they meant, because seems hard to believe. But it almost led to tragedy sometimes and robbed me of years of my life.

I also guess I am done with or beginning to give up on the idea that I could ever trust them even if they told me the matter was resolved, or that they had done anything. Or that permanent and radical change was made and all of this would never happen again. I will just stop waiting for that and resolve to never believe them if they ever said that to me now, for the rest of my life. And devote my life instead to exposing them. Exposing all of them at whatever level they may be in this situation. All the people in the mental health field and others who seemed involved in that, all the police and the people like paramedics who were involved for some reason. And now like I said, the judicial tenure commission wants me to spend the rest of my life going on a wild goose chase notarizing and re-notarizing documents for them only to be returned, every time with some new excuse of what I did wrong or how I sent them the wrong form. All wasting my time and money on that, for the rest of my life because I'll have no choice as I said. But I will continue things like that to expose them, expose them all. Expose them all to the public and always provide clear proof and evidence this is going on. If there were other cases like mine, I wonder how they ended. Possibly tragically because we'd never know. The cover of secrecy is to cover up what they did, to me I know. But fate stepped in my life as it has since I was a child. To expose them I think, and show the world what kind of pitiful excuses for human beings they are. Because like I said, people have abused me in the past in horrible ways and told me that I was somehow to blame. I was selfish, I was lazy, I had life too good, I didn't know true hardship or pain, they told me. But that's another thing I will never allow to happen again. I did nothing to deserve any of this, and I do deserve a good quality of life. Even if I never get one, and even after all these years were taken from me and now I am an old man they are abusing. Exposing them, and seeing they are held accountable. Which like I said before might also convince me something has been finally done here. But at this point I doubt that too.