Just Now.

I just got a letter from Wayne County Probate Court with my materials, either faxed or mailed, returned to me and the note that no such case exists on file and I have no guardianship.

Maybe I'm not making myself clear to them. I keep repeating myself. Now I've had a tendency all my life to do that, repeat myself, I guess. But I have to do that with them because they keep repeating their outrageous lies to me. But I was thinking just now, maybe what it is is that they think I will still play along. I am not supposed to question any of this, I am not supposed to question the status quo in any way, I'm basically not supposed to question what they are doing, while they continue to harm me. And I haven't made it clear by now that I am not playing with any of this in any way. Yet in all the years I have been telling them this, they haven't changed their tune in any way. They still tell me this ridiculous statement and pretend to believe I don't already know by now what is going on.

Like I said, this is outrageous, this is wrong, this stupid, I did nothing to deserve this and this is unnecessary. But they still don't see it that way and they just continue doing what they are doing now. All while my life falling apart around me. Eric is going to leave me now to become homeless, after he vandalizes my microwave and washing machine. And I'm told the law will support him in that. And now I am back at those dangerous levels of Olanzapine. And July 22nd I learn the Detroit police is still plotting and planning new things, instead of just leaving me alone. Falsifying documents saying that I am having problems with food safety even though they know that's not true either. And again the law supports them, not me. And I will spend the rest of my life fighting all of this. I wanted instead to have a good quality of life. Something that was denied to me since childhood because I have been abused like this since then. Abused deliberately as I've said, and this is just a new form of abuse obviously. Just like in 2004 it has all the elements of that. Horrible problems that I face, horrible problems with no solutions, horrible injustices and being treated unfairly, legal things that just couldn't be true, but everyone tells me that it is. And then if I question it they still say it is. I guess I'll have to fight this instead I living a good quality of life. I guess I will try some new legal tactic, but I don't know what would be the point. And I am definitely looking into fate giving all the people in my life who would do this to their fellow human being all that they deserve. But in the meantime I am at my wits end, because this is just going nowhere. And like I said, this has been going for several years now. Several years just that I know of. It actually has been going on longer than that. 15 years with Eric as my guardian I recently learned. And when it all began I don't know. I guess in 1992 with all the nonsense that shouldn't have happened then.

No fate will have to help me again. If not help me to live a peaceful life at least to give all the people in my life all that they have coming to them, since they just don't seem to know when to stop.