More Conclusions.

And I can't understand why people don't seem to understand now. We are at a critical phase in all of this. I am a dangerously high levels of that Olanzapine again, 7.5 mg. I already feel like damage is being done or something is different. And with my Cerebral Palsy sometimes I don't always feel pain or feel it fully. There is permanent damage being done right now that can be easily avoided. And if I lost my limbs, if I lost my sight, if I had a stroke, I'd lose my independence. And I'd be put in some old age home or group home where I'd have to access to the outside world. So I wouldn't be able to cry out for help. I'd be neglected horribly, especially one in Detroit. And I'd be threaten constantly and attacked for being gay, another problem typical of Detroit. Threaten constantly and attacked while being unable to defend myself due to my Cerebral Palsy.

I need things like a nice home where I can live independently, a car with hand pedals someday perhaps, maybe even a wheelchair ramp on my front porch. And Eric is the only one who could afford all that. And I already know where all of that will go. If I need a special car with hand pedals, he'll ignore me. And eventually he'll stop returning my calls and avoid me. Maybe he'll even block me or move out of town just to avoid me and not give me his new address. I wouldn't put in past him. But I can't complain, because then according to that lady I'd even lose that. Lose his money in other words. And the money for all of that wouldn't be available otherwise anyways. So I have to grin and say he's treating me well, no matter what he does.

Why am I the only person who sees how urgent this all is? Why am the only one concerned? Why am I the only one outraged even? And my therapist has made clear that the secrecy of it all must remain in place to protect the misdeeds of others. The police probably. I don't agree with that at all. I don't think anyone would. I don't think even most police would agree with that logic. Because I have never even spent the night in jail. But big strong policemen would at least be able to defend themselves there. But my therapist says that's still not an option though. Like I said, I disagree and will make sure that doesn't happen. But for now like I said, I seem to be the only one who even cares. All while damage is being done to me now even as we speak. Damage that could be avoided this time. And thus allowing me to preserve that beautiful life of mine. But no one seems to agree with me on that.