More Conclusions.

Like I said, I need a lot of special products and instructions now, a little assistance too in many ways. Just with cleaning around the house would be nice again. And I don't even know what's wrong with me. I only found out the last time I saw my gastroenterologist that the very serious cleaning issues I have with number two since I was a child could lead to infection. And I just can't get myself clean, I guess I never could, even when I go to ridiculous lengths and it seems like I did. I was led to believe all my life that was just normal and I don't even know what's wrong. If I at least knew the name of some of the problems I have and how others like that deal with them. And I thought for years I had very poor short-term memory, but someone online once told it sounds more like a problem with attention. I obviously have autism, and a couple of other things I'm told. I need to know my diagnosis and all the instructions and help that comes with that, and like I keep saying, after a lifetime of abuse like this I am entering my old age now. A lifetime of abusing a little handicapped boy who was just trying to live his life, now they are still doing that to an old man, but they don't care and absolutely nothing is being done. And I think they all owe me something, in fact I know they do. The law may hide their crimes but fate and history won't for long. And I expect that and plan on seeing that thru, them all being held responsible and paying me the damages they owe me. All the people who endangered me with dying by suicide and that abused me horribly, and the police and paramedics who tried to destroy my life in a whole new way starting 2004, after they drove me to suicide again, by taking my car, will see to all that. I mean it. And I keep thinking that maybe something is being planned behind my back and maybe the cavalry will come into save me in the end. I guess it was the way I grew up and the way I was raised that has me believing in that still. But clearly nothing like that is happening. I think no one cares, I think they are behaving the people we all know they are, and I am finding out that all if basically true. And what if I got a leg infection again? What if I got some other serious illness or physical problem? And again what is even wrong with me now? I just don't know. Clearly all the medical professionals in my life do, clearly the court does, the police and first responders who have access to that information as they always have, but they just don't care. They were abusing me since I was a child, watching me most of my adult life and trying to destroy my life with the twisting of the law and using the cover of secrecy, and all in a city with unsolved crimes, rampant abuse, and where most of the residents genuinely shouldn't be driving. But that never seemed to concern them, just me. And not only aren't any of them reforming, they are trying hide their crimes again now by saying that imaginary friend told me all of that.