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And I'm still trying to figure out what those texts last night meant. I know what my neighborhood friend was doing, he was trying to make me panic and think that the police would come and take me away and forcibly put me in a group home. Like the police did July 22. The police did that July 22, take me away for a ridiculous reason that couldn't possibly be legally valid. Accusing me of not be careful with food safety, when I am more careful with food safety if anything. And I was cooperating with this silly, unnecessary investigation. But that has been established, that they can do that. And do it behind my back do it by force and do it when I least suspect. Often when I am just about to enjoy a relaxing night at home and there was no reason for it. That will always be in the back of my mind, that could always lead to panic, and I know they are still planning and doing things like that. Even long after something should have been done now to help me. But I am not being helped. Certainly in no way that I know of. Quite the contrary, things are getting much worse. And then he texts me that. And again like July 22, suddenly out of the blue.

He seems to know something. But my financial advisor told me Eric was paying for nothing out of pocket. But for years I was led to believe he was, or perhaps he was. Life is expensive, food alone is expensive. And I am living a meager lower middle class existence. Life would be horrible in any group home. I am not used to that kind of living level. I am not used to not driving. Taking the bus would not be fun and I wouldn't enjoy it if I tried it. It would be dangerous, it would be horrible, I'd lose everything in a situation where I would have to live like that. I'm just not used to a level of living like that. It's horrible if there are people in this world that are. And the questions brought up here are ridiculous. Should Eric be responsible for taking care of me? Yes. He neglected and ignored me, he damaged me permanently with those horrible drugs. That and whatever else I mentioned. Probably more than that because the last Christmas I was over at his house he was playacting with his family to show me he was racked with horrible guilt. Horrible guilt about what? And then he can just blame me for complaining about all of that and walk away? And the law supports him with that, not me? And how will pay for all I need? The people who did this to me should. But no one agrees or my case still doesn't exist. The physical damage is mostly admitted to by my doctors, but they are coerced back into silence. You are never allowed to harm the most evil felon. And yet they could to me and I've never even been in jail. And there is no secret guardianship program in Michigan? Are all the people, all the lawyers who tell me that and would know, lying? Lying and complicit in that harm that was done to me and whoever else they did this to? But still no one, not a single person, speaks up? Or is it just done to me? Because that is a troubling legal issue, if not a horrible moral one. They can do this to people in Michigan and the US. Harm someone horribly, damage them and lie to them while the damage is being done, leading to death sometimes you have to think. And tell them all the while it's all in their head. Law-abiding mentally ill people, or even evil criminal mentally ill people. And defenseless old people, who are just trying to live their lives like me. And then there is no way to recover damages? So who pays for all of that? My neighborhood friend is still trying convince me I should pay for it, by buying less donuts and sports cards. But all of that just doesn't seem right, or even that it could be true. But I have no reason to believe it's getting better. It's getting worse, I ruined my life by speaking up, they're going to put me away someplace to shut me up for good, and then he sends me texts like that. Like July 22, when I least suspect it and am about to have a relaxing evening.