More On My Situation.

My urine still smells very stale. It is a very strong smell. I know they took a urine sample at DMC Sinai-Grace 5 South when I was there recently. But they didn't tell me they found anything, so I must assume they are lying to me. A Dollar Tree store-bought test said I have UTI. That could be dangerous. So why is the information being withheld from me and the public? That's very wrong. Medicine should never be used to deliberately harm someone. That principle goes back to the time of the ancient Greeks. I know there was a time in my life when I thought maybe very evil people, felons in prison IOW, deserved that kind of treatment. But now I know that is very wrong. And I didn't do anything wrong. I am a very good person and I've never even been in jail. So why am I being treated this way? Why does Wayne County Probate Court, my legal guardian Eric and the Detroit police think I deserve to be treated this way? This is not the kind of thing you would be able to get away doing to your worst enemy. Like I said, it's as if I have no value in some people's eyes. They do things to me they'd do to no one else, and they get way too personal with me doing things like trying to take away my car. Not because I am a bad driver or don't have good insurance, but just because they feel like it. All while my neighbors around me have no insurance, but they respect them and leave them alone. How could I be the only person who thinks that is outrageous?

I know my therapist said this is all to protect people's secrets. He was a little vague, but he obviously meant Wayne County Probate Court and the police. Why would I want to protect them if they are doing something like this? They need to be exposed. That short stay at DMC Sinai-Grace was obviously to intimidate me and shut me up. But I won't be silent. And now I am on those dangerously high doses of Olanzapine. But my doctors won't be allowed to warn me of the harm this time. Harm that will be permanent too, and alter my ability to be independent and my quality of life. Also I find that whole subject of suicide odd. There seems to be something there I am not supposed to tell. I have been the victim of extreme mental abuse since at least childhood. Extreme mental abuse that was obviously deliberate and planned, and that almost led to suicide. But it didn't. Fate intervened. And I think fate intervened so I could expose all of this and stop it, and I will. Just try to stop me. I also wonder about April 2004 at DMC Sinai-Grace 5 South. That could have ended very differently. I was actively planning and even trying out methods of suicide until 2011. But again fortunately nothing happened. And now no one cares, DMC Sinai-Grace is part of all of this again, and I told them when I was there recently they owe me a debt. To make right what they did to me in 2004. They don't seem to agree with that. But I think I have the public's support of this one too.

And I just want to repeat what I said many times before. People at hospitals, doctors and therapists, people with any knowledge of psychiatry knew they were driving me to thoughts of desperation and suicide. They knew exactly what they were saying, they knew my psychological profile and so they knew the effect what they were saying would have on me. I mean on anyone, really. How could they not know? I won't draw any more conclusions from that. But to repeat yet again, how could they not know?