More On My Situation.

I could have sworn I just posted this here, and now it's gone. I hope I am not double posting:

Like I said this situation doesn't seem to be going anywhere with me. All I know is they are still lying saying that Eric is not my legal guardian even though my doctors told me a couple of years ago that he is. I can't unlearn that fact and every time they do that it just reinforces the fact that they are lying. That they are lying, that they don't care and that I still have no worth and very low status in their eyes. They view me lower than the lowest criminal and they do things to me you could never do to even a criminal. Like deny me all access to the legal system. And then to lie about it. And then to do that for over 15 years. It never should have begun, but it certainly should have been resolved by now. But I'll never know when this nightmare is over. And since I know what kind of people they are and what they are capable of I have to deal with that too. But I plan on exposing it for the rest of my life, exposing that and exposing what they did to me. As I said, their abuse of me seems to have begun when I was a child. It's hard to believe and I don't know to what degree all where involved. All the more recent forms of abuse and unequal treatment involve the police, paramedics and the court. And they are bad enough, as I have explained. But I will spend the rest of my life exposing it, just remembering clearly what I saw. With attention to dates and events and other things I witnessed no mater how insignificant. Like I said, they may done this to others. I don't know. Nobody in Michigan would think they could do this to anyone, and I know they did it to me. And like I've said, they seem to place little importance on my physical health or well-being. And they knew they were driving me to thoughts of suicide with their abuse, how could they not? That is why I had better not end up psychiatric inpatient again. Not for more of their abuse. And not when the help I get is the kind I got in 2004 at Sinai-Grace hospital. But back then I didn't tell anyone what was going on and I didn't get others involved. This is obviously is coverup now too. It started as a misunderstanding and now it is a coverup by the police, the court and those others. One which I plan on spending the rest of my life exposing no matter how things turn out. I have little worth or importance in their eyes but it almost seems like I still have worth or importance in the eyes of fate or whoever. And I think I also think I was put here on earth to expose them and see they face some real justice for what they've done and what kind of people they are.

I am also still trying to figure out why my handicap is an issue. My neurologist discovered part of it in 2011 with an EEG. He said it obviously showed I had Cerebral Palsy due to birth trauma. Now everyone denies that as I've said. He also said that it must have been obvious I've had it all my life. Plus it is obvious I have been told I have autism and a couple of other things. If I knew what was wrong with me that would help me a lot. Just recently I found that many of my problems may be due to attention, not short term memory like I once thought. And I don't know what all these problems will lead to in my old age. Especially with all the damage they did to me and anything else that happened physically. Like I said, they are forced back into silence about that and I don't know what else is wrong. People say I probably had the beginning of neuropathy for some time now. I also obviously have it in both my hands, but I had to discover that on my own. And plus I don't know what else is wrong with me. I found out that like I thought, the physical changes from those unnecessary medicines were underway by 1994. But no one told me that then. I wonder what other damage or changes it did. And like I said, my status is either a secret or it can't be changed I'm told. I keep telling people I don't agree with any of that. And I will need special instructions on how to live with all my problems, especially as I become older like I said. And like I said before, Eric seemed racked with guilt once at my house over what my status was or what he couldn't tell me. There's nothing about a person's diagnosis or handicap status that should make someone react that way. All of that is very strange as I said. And my friend across the street is still telling me I will or may lose it all some day because I spend too much. That I am being selfish and lazy too for not realizing Eric pays for all that and how good I have it. Like I keep telling people, I don't spend much, life is just expensive. And I expect all the people who did this to me to ensure I have a good quality of life for the rest of my life. People in my life strongly disagree, but others would support me on that. And they claim I can't prove it, like I said I plan on spending the rest my life proving it, by just carefully retelling what happened to me. And also my friend across the street and the guy who seems to have moved into my neighborhood to help me are abandoning me and leaving me in disgust. Why? What did I do? Like I said, none of this makes sense. But I know everyone would agree I did nothing wrong and all of it is outrageous.