More On My Situation.

But the thing that always got me thru these trials, thru the times people did horrible things to me when I knew I didn't deserve it was that I knew I had the moral high ground. I never thought I was better than them, but that was always the case. At Oakwood Hospital in 1988 I knew what they were doing was wrong. Medicine should never be used to hurt and I was they to be helped, not abused. For a while I even wondered if any of that happened. But my therapist confirmed in 2011 that most or all the things I saw in my life really happened the way I saw them, just often not for the reasons I thought. And then when I tried to join the Straight Dope message board in 2001 I just posted something I thought was innocent about the bottle return law in Michigan and how I thought it was directed at homeless people, along with my favorite Anatole France quote. And the first responses were positive, until the moderators joined in. They tore into me, they were very angry at me. They said I was a waste of time to insult. Then they and some of the other board members started making fun of the way I talked and started making all their attacks of me very personal. No one had ever talked to me like that in my life, but no one defended me there and I still don't know what that was all about. I think they had some misconceptions about me or misinformation, but I think they just wanted me to leave. Like I told people years later if that's all they wanted they could have just asked. Plus the whole idea of moderators acting that way and people making fun of the way you talk like it's ever appropriate to make fun of people who are different, since that's what that seemed to be partly about. And the people from other countries. I had no idea they could be so obnoxious. I thought only Americans were that rude and hate-filled, but I found out I was wrong. I sometimes just don't get social interactions or understand social cues. I know when people are being rude, but it just seems odd when everyone does it and no one comes to your defense. And no apology is ever given either.

I know everything I said about Wayne County Probate Court, and the police and other first responders is true. There is a secret guardianship program in Michigan. I may be the only member of it, people aren't allowed to talk about it in any event. And the police and first responders were trying to take away my car, very unjustly. It was obvious even at the time. That matter seems to have been a misunderstanding too and it seems to have resolved itself, though as I said as a form of abuse it continued long after that. Like with that doctor of mine from Canada. That was a well-planned form of abuse that they seemed to think was mental health treatment, or maybe something else. I don't know. But it seems to have gone back as far as my childhood as far as I can tell. Or as long as I have been getting mental health treatment in any event. I now I am left all along, damaged after years of abuse. Faced with living into my old age that way, with whatever damage they gave me. They won't even tell me what, it's all still a secret. And now I am told the fact I can't afford to live the way I do, even though I am not really living that lavish of a lifestyle. They say that and say that might be used against me, perhaps very soon. It might just be another form of abuse, but they are saying it. And the car thing was really happening too I know. Now I am here faced with all the same issues I listed above. Wondering what I could have done to deserve this, wondering why they think it's justified, wondering how anyone could be so cruel. And having them say the worst thing you could say to someone in pain or abused. That it's all in your imagination, it's not really happening and our response to others who you tell about all of this is that it's not true too. Locked in a nightmare that will never end one way or another. Seeing nothing being done and beginning to realize that's because there really is nothing being done at all to help me now.