More On The Past.

Like I said, the fact that I am gay seems to be the main part of this all. It is something I am proud of, not ashamed of. At least most of my adult life. And it is how this all began. In 2004, or probably even long before that like I said. I know in Sinai-Grace in 2004 when I was still in the ER being treated for the Tylenol poisoning, that the police and others brought on, a lady staff had somehow been told that I was gay. Even though I never told anyone there. And she knew by then that I was proud of it. And she was trying to give me the moral advice that she didn't think I was living up to my standards as a Christian (she said that God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve). Which is outrageous, since it is obviously up to me to decide if I am living up to my own personal standards. That was central to my life then, it seems to be where everything started and what this is all about. And so I will always bring it up. It will always be my argument, of unequal treatment and what led to all the harm and damage that was done to me. Until I find peace or this is over. But of course I now know both of those things will never be.