More Thoughts.

It's amazing if true, some of the things that seem like they might be happening here now. I don't know if much of it is true. But I've always been rational so I know it's not a dream or something like that. Something simple like my love of music or some simple step that I took, maybe without even having that intention, has in some way changed the world. Because I used to have fantasies about that when I was younger. Fairy tales that came true, stories that always had happy endings. But I stopped believing in stuff like that long ago. And some it seems like it may have come true. I don't know about that though, nothing appears to have been done to help me so far though. I was done a horrible injustice and treated lower than the lowest criminal. And no one cares and no one feels that they have to take any responsibility for that. And I am stuck in a nightmare that will never end and that I will never know has ended anyways. And everyone is all right with that too. Plus I am facing an uncertain future medically and with all the things I'll need to live and survive and have any quality of life. And it's obviously much too late to consider things like my getting a job or some radical change in my life now. I have things I'll need and that and everything else will be expensive. Like I said, it's not because I have expensive tastes it's because there never was enough money to begin with. I think all the people who did that to me. The people who damaged me for years while they lied about it, the police who tried to take away my car while they let crime and abuse go on in my city at the same time. I think that, but no one else agrees with me.