More.

I grew up in a culture and class that always sided with the police. I guess that culture and class was middle class America. But as time went on my views started to slowly change. One of the first news events that did this was a story that came out when I was in grade school or HS. A policeman was guilty of some serious crime. Murder I think. And he said, okay I was found guilty. But you can't send me to prison. I'd be abused there by inmates seeking retaliation. I can't go to prison, I'm a police officer. And I thought to myself. You can't go to prison? For that? I think you can. And then more news stories came out and became of more issues involving the police and what some of them do.

All I know is my argument, legal and in other ways, will always be the same. And if I keep bringing up, in every situation I am in. No one seems to be listening to me now, but some people will. If I was ever driven to thoughts of suicide it was not because I am suicidal or prone to desperation, it was because of the abuse. The abuse that I was subjected to by the police, among others. And since the police worked for so long to take away my driving ability. Even thought I am a very good driver with a valid license. All of that in a city where most people don't bother to get insurance. And where there is all kinds of lawlessness and abuse. All while they focused on me minding my own business and just trying to do things like live my life and take walks in parks when I felt down. They will make sure I always have it. Through civil damages or whatever else I can bring up. I don't know how that would even work because now everyone is ignoring me and my case doesn't even exist. And even if I wasn't denied all access to the legal system, it's not like I could afford any attorney for a civil matter like that. But we'll see like I said.

And I'm still trying to figure out how my Cerebral Palsy fits into all of this. I noticed these problems all my life. And my adulthood I also figured there must be something physically wrong with me too. All the damage and all the other problems I now face, including being alone, having no financial means of dealing with some of these things and my old age, will be complicated by that. So I will always bring it up with all the rest. And I will always say how I think they all fit together. They do, because they show a pattern of abuse, a pattern of unequal treatment, how low people in my life would stoop to with all of that, and how my life will always be challenged by that. Especially if I want to live independently at home, driving as I say. Since people wanted to take all of that away from me for years. And now they may get their wish.