To Repeat.

And I have to make this clear once again, if it ever comes up again. The idea that I am somehow a danger, not other people, but to myself. Danger because I contemplated suicide in the past, which like I said always happened because they were abusing me. Some people are still trying to convince me I am just imagining things. But all that I said did happen, my doctors have confirmed I have damage done to my body that was kept hidden from me for decades now, they have confirmed that they were withholding that information from me and a lot of the rest of the stuff was confirmed too. Starting in 2011 like I said. Along of course with what I suspected all my life. And as I have made clear to people in my life, I better not end up inpatient ever again. Especially not like in Sinai-Grace hospital in 2004, where they only made that situation much worse. I went there to be helped after the abuse that was going on at that time led to a suicide attempt. And instead they did that. By that homophobic staff member, who that issue obviously was more important to him than the fact I almost died. And leading to seven years which almost ended tragically again that way. No I don't need that, and that certainly doesn't help me. It makes the situation worse and it makes it more likely that will happen. So again, I better not end up there again. Situations like that and the panic that leads to that will be ended by them no longer abusing me. And if they don't, and it already seems like that is the case, then I will expose them more. I just wasn't sure early on if I could do that, but now I know I can. And as I said I intend to from now on, for rest of my life. Until all involved are exposed for all they did to me, for the lifetime of abuse. And all those took part, and did things like endanger my life by trying to take my car. As long as I live on this earth I will expose them, and whatever they do in the future. Which like I said they already seem to be working on. And as far as how can tragedies like 2004 be avoided, it's simple. The same as in any situation where there are patients' rights abuses, where people get away with things like this to their fellow human being. Real accountability, people facing justice, people correcting their mistake immediately and when they've been exposed. Not continuing the lie, and showing what kind of people they are when they do that. Admitting responsibility, admitting responsibility publicly. That this happened, that they are the kinds of people who do things like that, that they did it to me. Since I was that little handicapped boy too ugly to beg, and who was just trying to live his life, while they kept finding new ways to destroy it each year. Changes in law, changes in a system of secrecy that allows them to do it unchecked and unobserved by the public. Even if that's just in my case, though that sounds impossible. And a system in place where someone like me who has done nothing wrong, who is a very good person, and who is just trying to live his life, is treated this way and harassed and treated like someone lower than the lowest criminal, while it's people like my Uncle Al and the people in the city where I live who are the real criminals, and yet who go unnoticed doing this. Because that system protects them, and they have endless rights, all while I have none.

We're going to put an end to that, put an end to all of that in my life, even if it seems that's not what's happening already. If not, then I'll continue fighting it, and exposing it too, for the public to see. And right now in addition to having all my legal rights restored, I need to have all legal compensation I need for all of this. All that I will need to live on now, which like I explained was never much. I don't wear expensive fashion or jewelry as I said, and I am down to buying expire food now, check my credit card statement. Compensation to live the rest of my life now, now that I'm entering the final years of it after a life of abuse. Compensation for all the damage they did to me, and did to me in the worst way, kept hidden, now long after I can stop it. Compensation for all the special items I will need from the damage, and from all the special needs I have with my handicap. Because I don't even know anything about that, and that was the kind of help and instructions I should have been receiving when I was still a child living with it. Money to live and, and to always have a car to maintain my independence, medical consent, and so I don't get killed walking to the mailbox as I have explained. And some real legal and moral responsibility too, which everyone is against. Even the court and the authorities, which seems rather odd. And I have no way of doing this. I need help with all those things, I agree. I can live independently, I can do a good job of taking care of myself, but I always agreed I needed a little help. I can't do this, fight this legal battle on my own. I would need legal help and counsel in any event, anyone would. But that's next to impossible, or actually that is impossible, because my case doesn't even exist. My doctors and a lot of other people have made clear it does exist. And yet every lawyer I reach out to, and they have to be free because in the US justice costs money. Everyone lawyer I reach out, when they finally stop ignoring me and respond, say my case doesn't even exist because they have to play along. And some go even further than that, they say there are no such things as secret guardianships in the US. They have no idea what I am even talking about. So I will have to assume the other people in my life are handling that in some way. I guess then they would be handling it now then. But I don't know why I think that because they tell me they are not, there's nothing to handle to say. But saying they are probably not, I am beginning to realize they are telling the truth at least when they say that.