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And the nurse practitioner at that new place said something the last time I saw her. She said I have to remain on that Olanzapine no matter how much it damages me. She said there was a very small chance, about 40%, even a low dose could damage me. Like I told her, statistically that is about half. And I am not a doctor, but it has been proven to damage me. So therefore that would probably closer to 100% for me. Why isn't anything being done and why does this continue? In two or three years nothing has been done. And the damage has been known for 15 years. In all that time nothing has been done. I gained weight for the first time in my life, my body metabolism was definitely changing by late 1994. That's over 30 years even. And nothing is being done, and I am left damaged, with my independence and safety in jeopardy, hopeless and alone, and no one who cares. And she says that, meaning Eric still wants to continue the damage it is doing to me. Why? I have never been a danger to myself or others. And who is going to pay for all the expensive care and other things I'll need that way? For about 15 years I've been telling others that Eric certainly won't be my chauffeur, like some people thought. And he certainly wouldn't help with those other things either. He's left me for good because I have been complaining too much.

And now we're at a critical stage in all of this. The damage is permanent. And it is endangering my health and mobility, my ability to be independent and care for myself. And be in danger without a car, Detroit and Dearborn police. Now there is a real chance I could lose the ability to drive one for good. The symptoms in my feet and hands got worse a year or two ago. And now in the past couple of months they seem to have gotten more worse. And I refuse all that treatment and all of the damage that it is doing to me now. I refuse it and I want it all to end now, along with the secrecy. It has gone way, way too far. And we are entering my older years. I will have to deal with all that I just said as an old man. And Eric and police certainly aren't going to take care of me as an old man. They don't feel responsible for what they do ever or who they hurt. And they must have done this to others. Like I said, I noticed the car issue with other mental patients and people with disabilities even in 2004.

This stupidity has to end now. The damage can prevented now, right at this moment. And now others know of it too. And I demand it end, immediately. And I want all those involved in it held accountable, to the fullest extent of the law. Or at least exposed. And the police and other secret guardians held accountable and exposed, so people know that this is going on and what they did to other people. I want this all to end now, I am not waiting any longer.

EDIT: And I also need special care for my Cerebral Palsy. For all many number one and number two issues I've had all my life. My doctors tell me they could lead to serious medical matters down the road if I just don't clean the right way and do other things related to them. Plus now that Eric, that court, and police have permanently damaged me, I am going to have a whole host of other issues I would have never had before that come from my Cerebral Palsy and will be complicated by my Cerebral Palsy, from what I've read. What I've read, because my doctors won't tell me anything about that. They are in denial mode about that and evasive when I ask for the simplest advice. I should have been treated for this, my Cerebral Palsy, long ago. And like one doctor said, it was obvious early on I had it. And now I have to deal with it into my old age, along with all problems those people caused me with it. All while they kept it hidden from me for decades.