Your first bi experience: Afterglow? Guilt?

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It's opened my eyes to see Im not alone and meet so many other men like me that love sucking cock as well

 

Believe it or not, you were never alone - it just seemed that way!

 

I thought that it was awesome. I was about 8 or so, in boy's boarding school. My roommate and I had virtually nothing in common other than sleeping naked and jacking off. In tight quarters we quickly began jacking each other. While my roommate remained rather solitary, In almost no time I was sneaking into other boy's rooms after 'Lights Out' for mutual cock stroking, individually and in groups; I very quickly graduated to giving head. I loved it. No guilt at all.

 

The wife knew so no guilt. Watching my friend sucking a guy, seeing his spare cock in front of my face, I slipped it into my mouth. Much nicer than I thought. Hooked straight away. Sucked him and he made all the right noises then swapped, had his cock back in my mouth as the other guy sucked me off. Euphoria describes the feeling best for I was doing without any sexual release. it was my happy place straight up.

 

This is amazing. Guys wish they had done this in their past. This is Nifty Sex Story stuff. I'd love to here about some of your favorite memories of yous. I'll trade with you

 

I was very happy and excited, waiting for the next opportunity. I never felt guilty, it just didn't bother me that it lasted for too short a time, I had an orgasm soon.

 

I guess it was guilt or something like it. My mind was spinning, I knew I wasn’t supposed to do it or like it, but I did.

All we did the first time was stroking and then oral. What a rush with girlfriend directing the action and coaxing me. It wasn’t long before I was looking forward to it.

 

When your lady is coaching, encouraging and sharing in your new found pleasure, the guilt went our the window along with my previous inhibitions. First thoughts were "what the fuck did I just do" She made it easy for me. Finding a good friend with the same mindset is key to enjoying the experience.

 

It's obvious that we've all experienced an array of feelings during our first same sex experience. Curiosity tends to overpower many men's minds until they finally find themselves in a same sex situation whether one on one with another man or during a MFM threesome. Either way, the majority of men find out that it's far more enjoyable than they ever expected. The satisfaction provided from that experience can also bring on an array of feelings as they question themselves about their own sexuality. It's normal for anyone, male or female to feel this way when engaged in a same sex experience. More times than not the satisfaction of those moments leads to more and more experiences as we become more comfortable in our own skin to realize that having sex with a man or a woman is equally enjoyable and doesn't change the fact that you are still a man. I've also come to realize that a man's cock holds a lot of power over another man that enjoys them far more than it does with most women. In the end most of us are perfectly comfortable and just go with the flow because we know how pleasurable a same sex experience is. For those of us that have an accepting wife to our bisexuality those experiences are enhanced even more.

 

It's just a shame that a lot of men don't figure this out until they're between the ages of 35 and 65 and it's a shame that our society is still all about vilifying anything that's same-sex and so many men grow into adulthood believing something that's not true and then, in some way or another, they find out that they've been missing out on something important all along and, damn - why didn't I do this before now? As someone who got started young, I... "get a kick" out of older guys coming to find out something I've always known: Having sex with a guy ain't bad and it's not as gay as you think. Having a wife who's understanding and is open-minded about sex (and sexuality) is always a plus but as many a married man has learned, it's not necessarily a dyed in the wool requirement and that, too, is just the way it's always been and something that's not going to change given the persistent and invasive way we still look at sex, sexuality, and monogamous relationships.

Here's my take on the guilt thing and something some of you might be aware of: Chances are good that while you were having that first experience, you weren't feeling all that guilty until you busted a nut. Oh, you might have been thinking, "I shouldn't be doing this!" but if you're already doing it, it doesn't make a bit of sense to stop since, um, if you didn't want to be doing it, you would have said no, it was your final answer, thanks for asking. For a lot of guys, there comes what I came to call "the moment of absolute clarity" when the rush of busting a nut is over with and for the former first timer, the next thought is, "What the hell did I just do?" and here comes that guilty feeling and, for some, utter confusion and I've seen guys giving their wives "a look" because she talked him into sucking my dick or making him lie back so I can suck his dick and, on some occasions, bury my boner in his ass.

I would sometimes say, "It's all fun and games until someone busts a nut..." but it's understandable that for some guys, that first experience and the resulting afterglow is unlike anything you've ever felt and experienced before and for other guys it's, "Oh, fuck me - what the fuck did I just do?" I've asked guys who I've seen suffering through this moment, "Were you feeling good and not so guilty while we were doing it? And I need for you to stop thinking about how you feel right now and think about how you were feeling while - usually - I was sucking your dick (or you sucked mine) and if you didn't feel all that guilty then, why do you feel guilty now?" Well, those of you who felt guilty after the fact know why you do - and then you learned that you had no reason to feel guilty and as far as that "it's gay" bullshit, you should have learned that it's just sex - and sexuality is a whole different thing even if it's related and, yep, this is some complicated shit and I've seen, heard from, and been with guys who didn't have their first experience until well into their adult years have a hard time reconciling things because they have undo years of heterosexual thinking and beliefs to be able to get a grip on the fact that they just sucked a guy off and... it wasn't as bad as they grew up thinking it was. Or, yeah, there's some truth that guys are better cocksuckers than women and as far as anal sex goes, yeah, guys are more likely to discover that men want a hard dick in their ass more than a woman would - and the only difference between fucking a woman in the ass and doing the same thing to a guy is... the sex (never gender) of the person they're having anal sex with.

And then, finding out the same thing I did when I was maybe 12 or 13: Just because I have sex with guys doesn't ever change the fact that I'm still a guy and in every way that means. Most guys find that they do not have to "like guys like that" or they're not attracted to guys like they are the ladies and it's bullshit for us to keep thinking that just because a guy likes sex with other guys, that means he's gay but if it means anything, it simply means that they like having sex like that because a blowjob is a blowjob and the only way it can be more than that is if you make it out to be more than that.

 

OMG! So much guilt. But I couldnt stop.

 

I can remember that, in the few minutes after my first experience was over and done with, sitting in my room, my butt was still a little sticky, I could still taste his cum in my mouth and I had $50 in my hand and thinking about where I could hide it so my parents wouldn't find it, take it, accuse me of stealing it, all of the above. I remember feeling guilty because I did something I was being repeatedly told to never do and I don't think I've ever felt that bad before in my young life. I remember shuddering for some reason and then... there were two things on my mind. The first was being able to go out tomorrow and hit the corner store so I could buy enough candy to give all of my friends a major sugar high and the second was to tell all of my male friends what I had experienced and knowing that I would want to do it again.

The sugar high came after telling my friends - and some already knew about this - and we decided that we should go do what I'd just learned. As an ICYWTK (in case you wanted to know), it was more fun once the sugar high kicked in

It's a pretty fucked-up feeling to know that you shouldn't have done it but, at the same time, it's so fucking exhilaratingly eye-opening to have experienced something that you were told was dirty, filthy, nasty and bad enough to make God punish you - and it wasn't bad at all and God didn't strike you down with a thunderbolt from Heaven. And you know that whenever you get a chance to do it again, you're going to do it even though you still believe that you shouldn't.

 

Extreme guilt that led to many years of sexual confusion.

 

Yet again I'm a weird one on this. After my first girlfriend of three years broke up with me when I was 30, gay desires exploded into my consciousness. I would always spend days jerking off to gay porn before my gay horniness was too much and I needed the real thing, by going out to different gay sex venues like video arcades, back rooms of gay bars, bathhouses, and gay sex clubs. There I'd be, gay desire for everything with a man--cocksucking, fucking, kissing, and even love--overflowing in me as I enter the bathhouse, but as soon as I was with a guy, all desire evaporated in me. I would always go ahead and exchange oral sex with him, and other guys there, but only to be a nice guy. But I never enjoyed it. But at home the next day the gay desires for everything gay would come flooding back, followed by more days of jerking off to gay porn, finally driving me out once again, only to be disappointed when I was finally naked with men. Rinse and repeat. We're talking hundreds of guys over a period of 21 years, interspersed with continuous attempts and failures with women.

There were only five exceptions where I maintained my desire for the guy I was having oral sex with. That kept me chasing those experiences. I've analyzed this a lot, and I'm pretty sure what was happening to me was feelings of guilt and shame, not afterwards, but DURING the sexual encounter! It was only afterwards when I was alone again that my internalized homophobia allowed the M2M desires to come out.

What finally turned the tide for me was finally for the first time, in 2013, in a bathhouse as far away from my home as I've ever been, across the Atlantic Ocean, my anal desires didn't disappear when I was naked with a very cute guy, and I attacked his asshole like a starving man, tongue-fucking it for over an hour before finally giving in to his screaming pleas to fuck him. It was finally inserting my cock into another man's ass that broke that internalized homophobic wall, and I was finally able to not only accept the gay side of myself, but love it. Ever since then I have enjoyed oral and anal sex with men. But I've had to work on removing even the SUBTLE feelings of guilt and shame, which were still there.

Finally, in the last couple of years really, I can say that they're pretty much all gone. I only have sex with guys now, and even have developed romantic feelings for some, and identify as a gay man--super happily and with great pride. But it's been a long journey, one which I wish I would've travelled only during my adolescence. So much time wasted because of that insane internalized homophobia, which I believe most men are suffering from to one degree or another.

 

It was a fantastic feeling, I knew this was what I had to do to be happy. I never felt guilty about it.

 

It was in a 3some wife my wife so there was no guilty feeling. I was so excited to try Bi sex. I came first and had no feelings of shame or guilt after. I sat back and watched him fuck my wife (and he fucked her well) with his large cock. Before long i was hard again and ready to continue.

 

First time I properly has sex, came inside someone. It felt pretty damn good. But we went BB and felt awful next day when I considered that. Made feel bad.

 

0 guilt. All afterglow. It felt natural and easy.

 

Mixed, guilt for half hour then more like after glow was horny for more

 

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