Am I evil?

Therapy and Chemical Castration.

Or, just Castration.

Seriously, If that's the only sex your into, sex isn't going to be a productive part of your life. You might enjoy other parts of life, but this isn't ok. So go to a doctor and get yourself castrated.

 

Well, I have no opnion reguarding anyone's personial dilemma.

But on a more general topic, one thing the world doesn't need is another child molester.

 

Thanks,
The way I see it is that the OP needs help and getting help before he acts on his urges is better than getting it after. I have no problem talking about my abuse since I realised the "We'll get in trouble" line was a load of bullshit. Life is not fixed it is managed. Telling someone who knows they have a problem and wants help with it to kill themselves is a little too drastic. By that logic you would be telling everybody who is on here who thinks about killing people to kill themselves or cut off their hands.

There are therapies that work and therapies that don't. You realise that 20 years ago they used aversion therapy to treat child molesters. The therapy went like this. They would show child pornography to the pedophile while forcing them to masturbate until they were dry shooting to make the memories painfull.

The point that was made by someone on this thread that the OP needs to go to threapy to figure out where these desires come from. This to me sounds like solid advice. Castration be it chemical or physical is a last resort that should only be used when nothing else worked and the damage has been done. Just remember that in the middle ages they used castration to punish for premarital sex. I'd like to think that we have evolved beyond that.

Peace Out,
Rev J

 

How 'bout this:

Would looking at midget porn be a legitimate replacement for your current illness?

 

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sexual pervert,

There's probably thousand convicted pedophiles out there who've served their time and who are living seemingly ordinary lives while keeping their urges in check. I believe that you have an even better chance of controlling yourself since you never succumbed to the need. Still, I think you should seek professional help as soon as possible.

Here's a short overview of various treatments for pedophilia that are available nowadays:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pedophilia#Treatment

You will probably find this article interesting too, if you haven't seen it yet:
http://www.thriveboston.com/counsel...research-and-counseling-treatment-strategies/

 

Just don't act on your actions.

 

As I've been reading this thread, I've been considering the psychology behind this kind of problem. You say you had a great childhood and nothing bad happened to you; do you think theres even the smallest chance that you're just repressing something? When I first got the internet when i was 12 or 13 I remember random people from chatrooms would send me pictures of kiddie porn. I was just as old as the children in the porn so while it shocked me, it shocked me in the same way that seeing any sexual act would shock a twelve year old. I didn't consider the ramifications of perversion performed on such a young person because I was a young person. This is really stretching but do you think maybe you saw images like that as a young child and it desensitized you to the fact that children are not meant to be sexual beings?

I'm reaching because I think every problem has a root source. I don't believe abnormal psychological issues arise spontaneously. Something had to have happened to you to make you view children as sexual beings instead of prepubescent innocents. Or maybe its a matter of control and dominance. Who knows...

but you should seek therapy immediately. Fantasies are fantasies but you've already crossed the line by downloading kiddie porn. Children were victimized in the making of that porn and by downloading it, you support it. You can have it set in your head that you'll never touch a child because you intellectually know its wrong, but what if you're ever put in a situation where you have to be alone with a child? All intellect might fly out the window in the face of desire...seek help before that happens. As other people have previously stated, it will fuck a person up for life to be molested as a child. One of my best friends was molested when he was a kid and its really sad to see how much anger he still has because of it...get help before you do this to a kid.

 

Oh gosh! This made me sad. I had this same thinking when I was a closeted gay teen. :grouphug:

 

i cant answer that.

 

I know that you haven't posted in your thread here in about a month OP, but I hope you read this. I registered for this forum just to respond to your post. Please no one delete this message as I am only posting this as an attempt to help the OP deal with these issues, as it's an issue very dear to me. Let me also state that I do nothing illegal... well OK, maybe I smoke weed and do some psychedelics from time to time, but that doesn't hurt anyone.

I unfortunately am primarily attracted to little girls - even abnormally young girls from about 3 up until they begin to become independent young teens. Let me state right off the bat that I know how wrong it is to DO anything about it, so I never have and never will. That being said, you shouldn't hate yourself for these feelings. You had no say in them, and nor did I. What you CAN do is choose to not give in to these emotions, and that makes you stronger than anyone around you will ever realize.

For me, it's not just sexual attraction, though I can't deny that aspect. I have a tendency to fall in love with certain little girls that I bond with that are my type. Naturally these situations are euphoric and heartbreaking all at the same time, as I do know that she does not love me as I love her. Still, the feeling of being able to provide so much in the way of kindness and attention to a child that desperately deserves and needs it feels very good, and there definitely is platonic love involved from her end as well that fills my heart with joy. I reiterate, I show NO inappropriate behavior to any child at any time. I have never been accused of molesting or behaving inappropriately to any child nor does anyone I know consider me a threat to anyone of any age. Very few understand what it is like to feel this way, and I have faith that the OP never will harm any child as long as he does not start convincing himself that it's OK. When I am around children, I am perceived as a very kind, caring, and affectionate adult because that's exactly what I am to them. Other adults that observe me around children see the exact same thing, even those that have been sexually abused in the past who are extremely careful about their children's safety. They nor anyone else ever need know of my feelings, but thank you for letting me share them here, despite the fact that this is incredibly difficult for me to do for obvious reasons.

Let me state for the record that I had a perfect family life growing up. I would describe it as being unusually normal, if that makes any sense. Very well raised, if a bit spoiled, and not abused in any way, shape or form. This attraction didn't spawn out of hate, frustration, or anger. I feel nothing but love for little girls, and that's why it's so hard to reconcile the sexual attraction. Still, it's not the major component by any stretch of the imagination and I'm perfectly capable of completely setting it aside and dealing with it privately through masturbation at a later time/date.

OP, I am a very unusual case. Most people that are attracted to children should not be around them, I'm convinced of this. Most advocate change because they want to justify molesting children. I believe that I'm an exception based upon my upbringing, my belief that it's WRONG, and my very high level of self control. If you feel you need therapy to avoid getting inappropriate with children, bravo. Go for it! Your number one concern must always be for their safety.

If you feel the need to talk to someone that understands EXACTLY what you're going through, please don't hesitate to e-mail me. I'd love to give moral support, like a 'sponsor'.

You're not an evil person, you were just dealt a rough hand, but you can make the best of it.

tl;dr I'm attracted to kids too but would never molest one, and am letting the OP know that he's not alone.