Anal Sex?

i have to say that i HATE anal sex it really hurts, and it's a bit like shitting backward (inwards). I really feel pain afterwards, for a LONG time, so for me, never again, but the sick thing is that everytime the guys did put it inside, and i was saying " no, i don't know, maybe not," (i wanted to be diplomatic the first times, because the guys made me feel that i was the one that was weird because i couldn't enjoy a dick in my anus!!!...), so the guys just seem to be in total extasy, and abslotely horny... Isn't it tottaly wrong? there is absolutely no connection between our feelings, i'm hating (like shitting inwards) and he is so fucking horny he can't stop, so in the end I have to SHOUT "STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". I mean, this is for me some kind of a mini oppression thing, he actually maybe enjoys it when i feel like shit.... It has happened more than one time, beleive me

 

and also: everytime i have had anal sex (maybe like 4 times only) the guys and i didn't have good sex in other ways, so it was a desperate way to feel some hard core friction... Yeah for me it has happened only with guys with small dicks and big egos

 

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