Call 911 or look in your phone book. There are crisis hotlines in there. You call them, tell them you are in desperate need of help. You need to talk to someone immediately. You can even go to the Hospital and tell them you need to talk to someone NOW. I would keep going till I found someone who would listen to me. Your life may seem so difficult and unhappy now but speaking from experience I am grateful I didn't go through with my thoughts. I have a wonderful life now. It sucked so badly for so long. I couldn't breathe from the depression. Now I have a family and someone who loves me. I have trust, faith, and love now. There is nothing in this world stopping you from having that all too. I had to go through therapy, medications, more therapy, more meds. I never gave up. If you give up than the rest will give up. If you are determined to make your life work than I would pick up that phone and start talking. I wish you well. Please don't give up.
theusualone17, Something you might want to consider. Most of the people around you are far too wrapped up in their own problems and their own selfish desires to be against you. Most likely, no one is out to hurt you. That doesn't mean that they won't hurt you, but it won't be out of spite. Let's deal with one problem at a time: You say you think your gf wants something from you or is cheating on you. What makes you think this?
well thanks alot, u can compare what is happening to other cases if you want to but do you know how it hurts to be like that? i dont think you do so you have no right to call me a fool
seek therpy and meds... there may be head issues you have to deal with... after years of having highs and very bad lows(wanting to kill myself, and atempts) i found out i was bipolar... im doing better now that im on the right meds..
well, i think that about my girlfriend because she is everything a guy could want. She is sweet, gorgeous, funny, interesting and clever and i rlly love her but i think that why would she like a guy like me? i am a no body andi have nothing to offer so i just think that she can get anyone she wants rather that being with me.
hun, think about it this way....if you're such a nobody then why is your girl with you in the first place? obviously she likes something about you....why don't you ask her what that is? you might feel better afterwards
thanks for replyin back. I have asked my girlfriend why she is with me and she says that because she tinks im a gr8 person ( i doubt it) n that she really loves me but i still think that she would so something bad to hurt me at the end. I just cant take that thought out of my head n that makes me want to kill myself ( one of the many reasons tho)
Look, man, if she is all that you say she is, then evidently you DO have something to offer! If she could have anybody else, then why doesn't she? Obviously there is something about YOU that she likes. You, man. You are not a nobody! Odds are, most people are just as worried about you liking them as you are about them liking you. It's just human nature. Have you tried talking to your parents? They might be better to talk to than you think. (just a guess -- I don't know them, or you)
"i am a no body andi have nothing to offer" dude, you've been in high school waaay too long if yer thinking like that... seriously, that school shit will poison yer mind... give you self-esteem problems... you should all yer school time to hang out with yer girl, man... or, if she goes to a different school than you... cut school one day, the both of ya, together... make a date out of it... don't let school get t' ya, man... buh-bye and peace, man...
Now we are getting somewhere. What you are suffering from looks like depression. I felt much as you did, once upon a time and I still do occasionally. First off, don't get any ideas into your head about breaking up with her. I once did that. It was a mistake. I really wanted her to ask me why or to say that she loved me or SOMETHING, but that didn't happen. She accepted it and I ended up stupidly breaking both of our hearts. Keep this in mind: If she's all that you say she is, she wouldn't be with you if she didn't want to. Don't fool youself into thinking that she's only still with you to spare your feelings. That's a bunch of crap. You might confide in her about how you feel, but you'll be better off talking to a counselor about it first. You aren't alone. You may need some medication to balance things out. Don't feel bad about that. It doesn't make you any less of a human being to need meds. You'd be amazed at the number of people who do. There are many free and easy avenues for you to take. I suggest the one offered by novaris (Samaritans). Thaye have a lot of experience with this. They won't make you feel stupid. They will help you. It's what they do. Taking that first step and contacting them will be the hardest one for you to take. Once you've done that, the rest will be much easier. Your life will never be perfect - nobody's life is perfect - but it will get better. Depression is a challenge to be overcome. It won't defeat you if you don't let it, but you can't do it alone. Really. Now is there anything else on your chest?
she lives quite far away from me but it doesnt mean that i dont want to be with her. i just dont want to her hurt and all i want is to people like me 4 who i am coz i try my best for people to like me and it doesnt really work. I NEED TO BEING SO PARANOID BUT I DONT KNOW HOW!!!!
Tried to hang myself once but the branch broke. I took it as an omen and went on. If I was to do it all over and would not want to miss - Take my car, in winter, go in front or into a nice park. I'd start by drinking heavily some Amaretto. Then I add some sleeping pills as I'd go along. Then before it hit me too much, I'd block the exhaust of the car. I'd go back in and take more pills and booze. Guess I'd simply go to "sleep" for a long time.
We don't know you, so you can't think that WE want to hurt you. You don't know how not to be paranoid. Fine. You may have had some bad experiences early on and you'll have to deal with them. Don't sweat it. Take everything as it comes. Lesson #1: EXPECT NOTHING! You came into this life with nothing and you will take nothing with you when you leave. Everything in between is a gift. Accept it for what it is and quit waiting for the other shoe to drop. That will drive you crazy. You are borrowing trouble, and you don't hvae to. Stop making your life harder than it has to be.
To everyone who replied to my message earlier on i want to say thank you because now i can see that someone does care abt me or something like that. I still have the feeling that i want to kill myself but ill try to contact the samaritans tomorrow and see if the could help me. My life is really hard at the moment but i hope that all this problem ends soon but i say it once again, thank you so much. what type of med. could i take to overcome depression? if i take medication does it mean im crazy or something like that? and how can i be more self confident? THANK YOU SO MUCH
Look 17, I read a little more of this thread. A door is either opened or closed. Meaning - you either die or you live. If you really intend on killing yourself - you'll probably succeed. If the pain was so overwhelming that you wanted to do it - you'd probably not even talk about it. So, I'm guessing that you don't really want to do it - but, I could be wrong to. So, it's more like - please send me a light - I'm in the dark here. Frankly, this board may not be the best place for help - you should try to see a psychologist if you don't feel better. Serious.
You are most welcome. As for us, well as for myself, I'm just paying it forward. Once someone did this for me. Now it's my turn. As for medication, IF it turns out that you need it, there are a number of different kinds and I couldn't possibly tell you what you need. As for being self confident, you just took the first step toward that. Just stay the course and you'll be fine.
Don't start taking medications. That's the worst thing you could do. Forget the girl, you need to learn to live with yourself before ANYONE is gonna be able to. If you want to feel better, just do it. YOU ARE IN CONTROL. DO NOT FORGET THIS SIMPLE FACT. My granddad woulda told you to pick yourself up by your bootstraps.
Hey, I've felt just the way you do. I have for years had the desire to end my life, but I knew I could never do it. Even though I really do have a great life, I was ALWAYS depressed. Depression can make your life seem absolutely horrible. However, some how, I got over it. I feel much better now. Just over this past summer I got a lot better. Be happy you have a girlfriend, too. Heh, I'd like nothing more than to have one myself. I envy you. You aren't worthless at all. If this girl is so great, then she would probably only be attracted to another great person: you.