NEVER would anyone admit of gayness at my high school, it was so stupid. It was all about image. and when i started to check out Myspace, and finding people i went to high school with, flaming gay. its so stupid that they cant just be open about it in high school without being rediculed and tossed as an outcast. If your gay, you should be able to say, hey im gay, and thats the end of it. I cant imagine holding a secret like that for such a long time, that has to be hard!
well, we were in southern california. being gay wasn't as bad there as elsewhere, but even still, there were quite a few who came out after. it wasn't at all surprising, most of them. it was pretty obvious anyway. but i'm talking about the rest of the guys, i swear, the things they'd do...
yeah, i know what you mean! but the whole small town thing, you go to walmart, you see at least 7 people you know, you go to the karaoke bar, you see at least 14 people you know, i moved for a while and found out that people were talking about me even though i wasnt living there! joplin missouri, jasper county - meth capital of the US.
in HS - i'd go around slapping peoples ass on the soccer field, my team and the other team college: 25-30 guys...1 shower stall because the 2nd one broke during rook week....all had to shit, shower, shave and get out of the bathroom within 10 minutes - all the while being screamed at for going too slow 4-5 guys in the stall at a time showering....girls got lucky or how 'bout this one - at mess, we'd play a game to see if we could get the person next to us laugh - now being recruits were not supposed to make any noise, laugh or talk. we had to square our meals. so what we'd do was put one of our hands on the person next to us and slowly move it up their thigh - that person couldn't say anything. or we'd play the state game. you put your hand on the thigh and ask them to guess the state you're thinking of. they get wrong, you move your hand up their thigh. this is what we did as upperclassman haha
ick. i've never really been a small town person. dave knows EVERYONE in farmington. but even that's not small anymore.
all my guy friends talk all dirty to each other, and joke around about shit, and its just a guy thing, girls seriously are no better. we.... compare boobs, show eachother our new underwear, grab eachothers boobs if theyre really revealing, kiss, smack eachothers asses, same kinda shit! infact, i would think women are worse, cus we are more passionate and dont give a shit about that kind of thing, ive came over to my friends house, wore her underwear, cus i didnt bring any clothes, and slept in the bed with her, and we snuggled. no im not gay, either. not even bi. and i kiss my best girl friends all the time.
okay, but you're not a guy who typically derides all things gay. i swear, the guys i was in high school with were the biggest pack of homophobic gay men ever. it was all so hypocritical. being bi, have to confess, it's a little disturbing to me when my girlfriends would make out with me and grope me. it's different for me. it was like being led on. one of my old roommates, who i had a major crush on, would full on make out with me. and it would hurt because she was just doing it to get male attention. it took me a while to get to a place where i wouldn't take it seriously. i can see how guys can get really confused, i know i was.
my best friend is bi, and she has gotton the feeling of being led on as well. not to mention the confusion she went through hs as well! school is cruel.
yea, that makes sense. never thought of it that way. sucks being led on, to only realize it was for attention. thanks for the good insight though