Day 6, day of aggrivation. Well I was gonna see that girl I talked about earlier but that fell through. I spent 3 hours in my kung fu class and the higher belts were practicing throwing their opponents so I got tossed around a lot. I didn't mind it but its actually a lot of work getting up over and over again. I went out to approach some girls just awhile ago but I was solo and for some reason that makes it more challenging... I guess cause you don't have someone pushing you to go for it. I said hi to some strangers and the reactions I get are always interesting. Some people are thrilled that you've simply acknowlegded their exisitence and others completely ignore you. Anyways it's important to keep track of whats on my mind and my mood. I haven't been thinking about sex as much these last 2 days. I'm trying hard not to touch myself or look at porn and the only way to really do that is to avoid thinking about sex. As soon as I think about sex, I get a strong desire to stroke myself and at that point its really hard to just go do something else.... avoiding thinking about sex is the easiest way not to masturbate. The only time I can think about it is when I'm in public or in a place where I can't masturbate even if I wanted to. Even then its just plain fucking frustrating to think about it and not be able to do anything about it aside from walking up to women and saying "hey - lets fuck" 100 times til someone says yes and I'm not quite that frustrated yet. I really do keep busy when I go without masturbating... I know that if I just sit around I'm gonna end up doing it so I keep moving and I manage to get a lot done. I think I'm more willing to express what I really think and do things that I would otherwise be too reluctant to do. Well, like skydiving for one. Also chatting up the girl from kung fu and my brothers friend. Today marks the end of the week where I was going for 10 conversations with strangers. I managed about 7 or so which isn't bad. This week I want to approach 10 girls I'm attracted to.
Quote from Magnet "Can I quit masturbating?" Answer yes you can , but Jesus has got your card marked sonny... Everytime you bring out that inflatable sheep. Every time you looking at the women's underwear section of your mother's clothes mail order catalogue , before the internet came along. He's totted it all up , and youre going to HELL! LOL Sorry I couldnt resist. OK instead of choking your chicken , increased exercise will curb xs horniness. Also its the ejaculation not stimulation which is causing tiredness. Sex and circulating sexual energy gives you MORE energy not less. PS not shooting your bolt for a long long time is a good way of giving yourself prostate cancer.Still , better than hell I suppose LOL PPS I heard about a pervy Conservative politician who paid a big fat prostitute to lock his dick up so he couldnt play with it.And if he tried to , shed beat the fuck out of him. Is that the sort of shit u had in mind?LOL PPPS u realise that if youre always horny and u dont have an outlet for it , u could wind up with a boner in the most inappropriate of places - like when ure walking past the local infants school at home time he he he
Man it's been a long day... nothing really that interesting happened but its been a long day. I felt a bit lonely today. I'm getting a huge drive to be with a woman. It's not just sex... I have an urge to just be around women... kind of a craving for intimacy. I'm trying hard to keep my temper too. really too tired to write anymore, night
being in college there isnt allways the opportunity to masterbate would you do this again if you hadnt included the part about talking to other people (ie would you go back and just not masterbate if you had the chance) ive gone about 2 days without and am wandering if I should give this a shot
Remember that bike I wanted? Well I got it for $1500, and it was great until my second ride out and the rear derailer (the thing that changes the gears) exploded. I was picking up peices of metal in the street... The shop is open on Wednesday so I'll take it in then and hopefully get this straightened out. pretty disappointing. I looked at a little porn today... When I wake up and think about how I have to do "this or that" today and the day seems to be full of obligations, these are the days that I tend to have more desire to masturbate. when I take things slow and just do what goals I want to do I seem to accomplish more. I'm gonna be frank.... 99% of my posts are going to have the word "horny" in them. It's such a dominant feeling... Yeah I get aggrivated, frustrated, happy, confident, angry, and even sad or lonely but horny seems to be somewhere in the background if not at the forefront at all times. The desire... the yearning... to grab a girls hips and thrust myself into her until we both collapse is something that seems so important and exciting and.... magical.... it's magically important. I sent an email to my ex telling her how horny I am. This is so frustrating but I have to admit that it's also fun. I'm starting to get this feeling that nothing I do is "bad" or "wrong." I'm acting out my nature. My nature is to be a man, to be aggressive, and hungry for sex, to be competitive and willing to take risks. I'm only beginning to feel this way, it's very different and the change makes me feel a little uneasy but I want more of it... it feels like raw power mixed with a need and a hunger like a cycle. At the very least I recommend you try it once in your life just to see what its like. Maybe 2 weeks would be good enough. It sounds more like you're embarrassed about masturbating because you don't have enough privacy. If that's the case then I suggest you somehow find some privacy because not masturbating because you're ashamed sucks.... that's just bad for you on all kinds of levels. Ask you're roommate to give you some time alone at a set time... if he's not an asshole he'll give you some slack. I would rather you run down the halls masturbating and screaming and knocking on all the doors than try to hide the fact that your a human fucking being who has needs just like everyone else. If you want to quit, you gotta have a real reason why you want to quit... My reason is that I want to have more desire for women so that I'll be willing to go out and deal with the rejection and mishaps of trying to get laid. I want my sexual needs met by women because its more fulfilling for me and for all those women out there who don't have the pleasure of knowing me yet. Real sex is a beautiful thing and there needs to be more of it all over the place (specially on the face - man that's hot).
she looks at you with those cat eyes as her knees are open, open to the skies she presses on her magic button her pussy glistening and juices running down her buttocks she arches, throws her head back and cries [size=+2]BONE ME, BONE ME[/size] [size=+4]OOH BONE ME[/size] hehe. That should sabotage your efforts.
So what happened today? I've been working on an old car with my dad for a long time and its getting close to being finished... We took it out for a drive and it was pretty sloppy so its got some more work to do but it's the first time in years that we took it for a spin. I went to a salsa class and I was intending to ask one of the older women there who are mostly in their 40s for their number so that I could "dance" with them outside class. Before I could, one of them asked for my number... That was cool but afterwards she seemed kind of shy. I guess I should have shown more interest instead of playing it cool. Older women are more mature and they don't need all the games (or at least some of them). I don't know if I wrote this before but my objective for the week is to get rejected 10 times after asking for a number. So I haven't accomplished anything yet towards this goal. I spent a good 2 hours just lost in lust and horniness this morning stroking myself... If I think about sex, my hand is in my pants instantly. Also stress tends to make me want to jerk off. Things are pretty easy going right now though so that's not so much a problem... it will be later when I'm moving and going to school so I gotta make sure I meditate everyday and maintain a certain level of calm. I mentioned before how I've been feeling like I can't do anything "bad." Today I got this feeling that I shouldn't hold expectations of myself. It's so liberating... just ask "how would it feel if I didn't have any expectations of myself" its great. It's like I've been going through life with all this obligation on my shoulders and for what? to accomplish things I don't care about? why? Why not live life the way I want to live it? Otherwise what am I doing? Fuck doing what other people want you to do, do what you love and find people who love you for it. I'm making a resolution right now not to stroke it anymore or look at porn. Man... while I was dancing in salsa I really got a feel for how much women like to be led by a competant guy. If I was kinda too easy on them, they got bored but when I really grabbed on and changed things up and did things my way, the women kind of giggled and complimented my dancing. some older women are pretty sexy... and chesty... .... uh okay thinking about other things... money, baseball ... yeah thats better
salsa that dance is sooo sensuous why 2 skilled dancers doing salsa is like [size=+4]mutual masturbation baby[/size] makes me wanna wrap one leg around his pelvis [size=+2]and do the grind[/size] magnet u’ll attract girls for sure it’s inevitable, it’s magnetic attraction and I wanna do the grind, oops I mean the salsa with u baby [size=+4]the grind, the grind, oooh yes baby grind me[/size] *pant*
man its late and im tired so im gonna keep this quick. I did today without porn or stroking it... i felt really lazy though. I had energy but i just didn't want to do what i had planned out. I'm gonna try to recapture my motivation tomorrow. i had an opportunity to ask out that chick at kung fu but i pussed out. Tomorrow I'm going to some kind of fair thing with my brother so I'll have some opportunities to ask for numbers there.
My road bike is fixed. I'm happy about that, it means a lot to me. I'm going to join a riding club... So I have two girls who I'd like to fuck right now. Salsa woman (older woman) Kung fu girl (hot girl whose only a few years older) I'm really horny (like I said I'm gonna say that pretty much every post). I'll be doing something and all of a sudden I'll just fall away into a sexual fantasy for about a minute, it must look funny from the outside, I'll be really busy and then I'll just stop and kinda stare off into space for seemingly no reason. I'm also suddenly seeing things in a sexual way whereas before I would never have paid attention. Billboards, ads, random things on TV ( I don't watch TV but if I'm walking by and see a sexy woman I'll stare for a second or two). I used to never give a shit about those things or if it did catch my eye it would just anger me by how stupid and manipulative it was but now I just kinda softly stare at it blankly like it was an interesting painting in a museum. Just an easy smile, no thoughts, eyes locked but relaxed... It's like models have the power to hypnotise me. Another new thing starting to happen is I'll either glance or take a good look at a woman's chest when I'm just about to talk to her. This is so automatic that I'm not even aware of it sometimes. Sometimes the woman isn't even that attractive and when I catch myself looking at her chest I kinda twitch and feel kinda repulsed ...."what the hell am I doing, yuck." It's a challenge to handle the aggrivation that comes with quitting... It's amazing how pissed I get at little things. Whenever that happens, I listen to how aggrivated I am and ask why and try to deal with whatever is causing it... If I let it just dwell inside me I start going crazy.
Phew 12 days.... I'm starting to feel desperate. I went to a mall today with the intention of getting rejected a few times. I tried this yesterday or the day before and I couldn't get the nerve to do it but today I got 2. I'm proud of that. Tomorrow I want to get 8 more to finish up the week with 10. Fuck I'm aggrivated. Everything is fucking intense... my feelings are fucking intense. I find myself taking things too seriously... Just writing about this is making me angry, I think I'm gonna take a bath and relax. I need a blowjob.
Almost to 2 weeks. Last night sucked hard. I couldn't sleep at all, I kept waking up feeling really horny and having all these sexual thoughts. The morning wasn't much better, I roamed the forums here a bit and that got me horny and then I looked at some porn. I ended up stroking myself but I didn't break down and cum. I tried to get myself to do some constructive stuff but nothing was motivating me until I decided to go for a bike ride... I ended up going through these hills I've never done before and I followed this guy who looked like a professional cyclist for quite a ways. I ended up going 26 miles. I checked by driving the same route and checking the mileage gauge. I felt great when I was done and I set out to make dinner for my family. I bought a cookbook recently because I want to start learning and I made my first meal tonight. It was linguine with shrimp and this really great sauce with onions, garlic, spices, diced tomatoes... I burned my hand but besides that it was a great experience... it was pretty fun. I've been feeling really desperate for sex lately... Lonely too. Being grateful really helps with that. I mean, what if I was that guy who got stranded on an island back in the 18th century who they based that robinson crusoe book on? I got it pretty good compared to that guy... I didn't get the 10 rejections this week... I only got 2. I'm going to santa cruz tomorrow so I'll have a chance to do some approaches down there. Thanks for the support luke, I appreciate that man.
first dude good luck but i think that the energy is there at the begining but after a while it fades and your left with out the high man 2 weeks is a tough goal o and i also think this thread is being a big help to u man but good luck
Wow so frustrating. My brother invited a couple of girls over to our house and I was flirting with one of them... had her on my lap etc. But at the end of the night, nothing came of it and man I just feel frustrated. It's so unbelievably easy to just come home and turn on the computer and jack off to satisfy that hunger for sex... There's no barriers to doing it. When you try to switch to having women fill that need, you're whole body is so resistant. It just keeps asking why why why? Why am I waiting to fulfill this need that is so easy to fulfill? In my head I know what I want but my body doesn't give a shit. I don't think I've entirely accepted the fact that I'm not going to orgasm until there's a beautiful woman lying naked in my bed with her lips pressed tightly against mine and my body rubbing and thrusting into hers. Thanks Ibe, we'll see how things go.
So i went out for a ride today and it was kinda cool. a car passed me heading the opposite way and turned and drove passed me. then a woaman with a camera jumped out ran in the street and took pictures of me as i passed. i was happy 2 get the attention. but then about an hour into my ride tragedy struck. i lost my balance on the windy road heading downhill and i slipped into the ditch by the road. i got cut up on my shoulder, knee and hand but i thought i was okay besides that. couldnt move my arm all the way back and forth so i drove to the hospital and the doctor said i have a hairline fracture in my right arm so i have to wear a sling for 2 weeks.... this is lame and i have some pain in my cuts and i cant use my right hand oor arm... despite thuis im still horny haha.. my left hand sucks thus my typing sucks, heres sum pics