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I might have some work on Friday moving boxes.Also trying to get a grip on my drinking.Just chilling right now on my bed with candles and relaxing music.Hope everyone is doing okay.

 

I would not go to Indonesia for eye surgery =|
My specialists who look at my eyes performed all 3 of my surgeries. I wouldn't take the risk of some random person in a random country who doesn't know the history of my eyes get near.. my eyes. :d

 

I used to bother to wear contact lenses but now just feel more comfortable with my glasses.I've often thought about laser surgery but don't think I could go through with it.

 

Looks good!

 

Awesome avatar Aeri!

 

most of my scars are hidden inside my head

 

everyone wants go to heaven but nobody want death

place where i have no relaxation is in my head.

my head is a hole, dark and deep it grows

actually capital G.O.D have mercy on my soul

sick as i choose to be, but get away from me ,

respect my mind, or ya gonna feel it for eternity..

sometime ya gotta do what ya gotta...

put a knife on a tongue

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0NXKy8wlGg

 

Little stressed out and weirdly emotionally drained lately. Been staying busy with work, business, projects, hobbies, and going to the gym alot. I feel super energetic and social but weirdly rejected.

I know it's all in my head so I've been pouring myself into books and such lately.

 

make a nice dinner and watch a movie with a good bowl.

doing my mexican dish and will lay in bed with bud so I don't dream.. wake up to wtf here we go again.

Stay positive

 

Books are awesome. I'm reading one about the Samurai.

 

Books have almost literally saved me, my sanity, at times in my life.

There are so many here, I could be accused of being a bibliophile, but I'm going to deny that.

I can get rid of, give away relatively anything and not be bothered - except for my books and rocks. When I give rocks, that is about the most special gift I can give...and I need to know that it'll be properly appreciated.

Books, rocks and the piano. I need those.

 

I have a scar hidden under my hair.

About 12 yrs ago, I yanked back a twisty hose and the nozzle SMACKED me in the top right part of my head HARD! ...my friend glued it together when I refused to go the hospital. I can feel it slightly dented in and everything...I know just where to feel. lol

There are scars inside my head too, though.

I think we all that come here to the sl chat threads have those.

Scars are ok.

 

Books and music is where I retreated when I went through each of my abusive living situations. Over the past several years I haven't read as much because that escape has been less of a necessary thing for me, but in the mean time I have deprived myself of some wonderful reading.

My kindle help[s with that tremendously.

 

it was supposed to rain today, off and on showers. instead, it is snowing. im cold and bummed right out. i wanted rain.

 

rain here, blah..

 

Wind here...

 

i meant to say most of my scars are emotional but it came out wrong


I CRAVE rain this time of year i dream about those hot summer evening thunderstorms that smell of ozone

 

we knew what you meant..