Chat In The Name Of Love

im less worried now than i used to be. my mom is staying with us for awhile, and i dont need to leave stuff laying about for her, but im also not super worried.

might be able to find a job too, depending, we will see. hubby is sober a little over a month now, hes doing everything he can. its getting better.

and in talking to an old friend i realized that the precedence for this kind of forgiveness has already been set for me. it will take longer to be complete this time, but i know, or i suppose i remember, that i am capable of it.

i love you guys. best little corner of the internet.

 

If it's good, that's good...






I'm still lost though as is normal

 

my dog is only going on 6months. I thought she was a little older ..

 

no matter how lost you are, my hugs will find you

 

the sky tonight was amazing..

 

i think i have my albums sorted

got rid of it all except for calvin stuff

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UkLVTdg7Og&sns=em

 

Job interview on Thursday morning. It's at a supplements warwhouse and obviously interested in me because of my pharmaceutical delivery background. Fingers crossed. Also have another 2 jobs to apply for tonight.

 

good luck!

 

Thank you! Got my missus typing up some cover letters for me. It's frustrating that you can't save documents and stuff on an iPad. Word wants me to spend hundreds for that ability. Lol. No thanks.

 

i use OpenOffice

 

Can't find it, and any "office word" thing seems to cost dollars.
I should just bring my laptop to work with me.

 

open office is an open source program, it might not work on ipad

 

Probably most likely why I couldn't find it then.

 

Got an interview with one of those jobs already, this afternoon! Just with recruitment agency first, not a formal interview or anything but that was quick, literally 4 minutes from application being submitted.

 

And here's work trying to load me with work so I can't make the appointment. I'm rejecting jobs left right and centre expecting a phone call soon and I'll lose it I think. I'm almost ready to throw this shit in anyway it's doing my head in. I'm so stressed, anxious and angry all the time. I had a week off I was fine then first day back fucked around and I just felt my blood pressure spike and really think the stress and constant bullying of this bullshit just isn't worth the health concerns.

 

That excellent news Ygg! (I always want to call you Yograsil, which would be a variation of one of my favorite flowers, daffodil. ) You'll get one of these jobs!

I'm just checking in with the best group of people I know.

I may actually clean up this house this week on my 2 days off...and worry with dang roofing crap. The insurance people still have a few words to hear from me...the ones at the headquarters. This whole episode/fiasco in with dealing with all that inserted a burr completely up my ass...and I'm finding it quite therapeutic (in removing said burr) expressing myself to them, talking about writing letters, threatening lodging a formal complaint, etc. lol

Isn't it odd what will make us feel better?

 

LYNN!...

 

And my interview was very promising! "Perfectly suited for this job, let's see if we can get you out of yours". Still no guarantee, I need to be accepted by employer for interviews but still, at least recruitment saw the potential.

 

debating whether to go back to diploma mill tomorrow. aka hvac school. Ive taken a leave of absence. little soul searching. gathering that maybe not such a good idea after all. even tho its entirely paid for. I dont feel like right about it. they want to push the shit metal and cut psychometrics and electric. Im sorry I dont think uncle sam should give them 25K for me to cut my fingers off. the course layout wasnt 5hours of shit metal. when I told them I wasnt doing that shit. they said I was getting an orange card, and said give me an apple and a banana one too, cause I really dont care.
I have what I wanted out of it already, its their stupid mistake to give the EPA exam so early in. my drivers licence still fucked having to drive there and other take bus. Its costing me more than Im willing to let go .. school buses and the most dangerous road in town I go on. just what I need to get license even more fucked. but Ive no choice sometimes. I sleep and its only 10minutes when I drive. I just wanna get my tools and roll. maybe see I can back burner it for time being. I really dont know what to think about it when the class ahead should be internships places and not working at all. kinda sends a bad message to the next class.