First off, Neodude, you know how to start a good thread! Second, I would recommend only a rare and ritualistic, ceremonial use of some natural substance such as shrooms and peyote or mescaline even, if He was really with you. You know. I can tell you have common sense, a true rarity. People will talk their crap - but you will know who you are if you know Him - and it can empower you. Jesus said to Expect Tribulation, but to be overjoyed for he had overcome the world. The earlier post was absoultely correct when they said this and this alone would not keep you out of the kingdom. I'll pray for you to find the right crop.