Coming on too strongly

I'm really the first one?

well might help that I just recently picked up the books again. Reading "Tales of Power" right now.

 

well first to say anything maybe. i don't think it's possible to know who noticed first...

and no, i'm not saying that i noticed.

 

oh shut up

 

OMG! I was totally just talking about this. I am determined to make friends with a guy I work with because I hardly know anyone. But I think I scared him. I'm not five anymore, I can't just go sit next to people in the sandbox lol.

 

I usually come off too strong... I think a lot of people can not handle the strong sarcasm so I come off as a bitch. I catch myself repeatedly saying "I'm just joking..." People. There are only a few people who can deal with me without take it up the ass.

It's cool. Fuck everyone else, I'm going to be me regardless.

 

I did read in another thread the Jerry420's dad is friends with CC widow..I think it would be interesting to talk to her..
I havent reread any of the books in a few years..but I do on occasion turn to random pages and just begin reading..lots of knowledge and insight..

 

my fav from today: "I don't see why you make such a fuss out of this. Whenever the dialogue stops, the world collapses and extraordinary facets of ourselves surface, as though they had been kept heavily guarded by our words. You are like you are, because you tell yourself that you are that way."

I've read some things about her and I don't think she has much good to say about him. I think its funny that he made it all up. I have a hard time getting through the series though because CC asks too many fucking questions.

 

I used to have to tell people I was kidding but now I make sure I make faces or nudge them or wink or laugh....something to let them know that its all good. Those that I haven't known before or for long, that is. Other people, they know me by now.

ANd yeah, fuck everyone, be you

 

oh yeah, he is the biggest baby in those books..it is really hard for me to believe that he made it all up though..but great reading none the less..what an experience it would be to do..I have thought of going to Sonora
, Mexico many times just to see if I could find some peyote. haha..then hike way deep in the desert for a few night..maybe one of these days.

 

that sounds lovely. ever try peyote?

It would be an excellent experience. Though I must say that when I started reading them, I could not read them like they were real. I thought bullshit too much. SO I had to start reading them like Don Juan was his spirit guide....which he was supposed to be....but I mean, not in a physical form but more like a demian or his own higher self perhaps.

 

No..but I have wanted to, just never came across it ever..

 

san pedro

my good friend.

 

yeah, mescaline in any form is next on my to do list

 

I'm with you there.

I want to try something that just blows my whole fucking world up and I lose the hell out of myself. I wanna come off and be so shaken to my very core that I have to redefine everything.

 

that sounds awesome..something that totally shifts awareness and perception forever...in a good way

 

*thumbs up*

Now I have had one tantric experience that took me from myself. and I have never been able to find that same exact feeling again. I had left my body and left earth. I was floating in space with my partner. We both experienced it.

damn the luck.