Depressed, lonely, hopeless, and dying.

cass dont worry, there are lots of friends on here

 

I've seen your post geez...that was punishment enough! Ahahaha!

 

Haha. My hands are still tired.

 

When you say "depression", do you mean depression like having negative emotions such as sadness, grief, remorse, or do you mean depression like feeling apathy, emptiness, that everything seems pointless? They are both commonly referred to as "depression" in English, but they are two different things.

I know perfectly well what it's like to be different, and getting constantly misunderstood, and wondering why the people have to be so weird, and desperately trying to find someone like myself. I still don't really know how to get along in this strange world.

My first advice to you is to stop taking labels too seriously. The fact that you are diagnosed with something does not mean that you are exactly the same as everyone else who carries the same label. This means, for example, that when some clueless smartass writes an article with suggestions that he claims are helpful against, say, agoraphobia, and none of those are helpful to you, it doesn't mean that you have somehow failed, it simply means that the writer doesn't know you and isn't offering you useful advice.

 

Ah, classic symptoms of a high IQ, creative androgyne person

http://blogs.psychcentral.com/creative-mind/2011/02/the-complexity-of-the-creative-personality/

Could be a hormone imbalance caused by the presence of both male and female gender mapping in your brain.

Relative lengths of ring and index fingers are reliable indicators of levels of sex hormones absorbed in the womb; longer ring fingers than index fingers indicate high levels of testosterone, longer index fingers indicate high estrogen levels.

Long ring fingers are also associated with higher occurrence of varying levels of dyslexia, high level musical ability, ability to visualize concepts in engineering, physical abilities, ability to maintain a mental map, and male-like behavior in women who have them

http://viewzone2.com/fingers.html

Also, these people are often both pansexual and asexual.

High IQ, creative people's DNA typically has increasing levels of genetic mistakes, including various forms of depression, bipolar, manic depressive, etc. One researcher even joked that high intelligence is a mental illness.

As an androgyne female ages, her estrogen levels drop, and the male hormones are more prevalent, so her behavior can become more male, and she can find herself more attracted to females than previously.
Still, the presence of both hormones tend to cancel each other out as well.

Things I do, that might work for you, but maybe your case is more severe than mine-

1. Acknowlege your male side, let him express in some safe way. Suppressing the male side of you can be exhausting. Let him do something manly, give him a name-whatever gives you relief.

2. get outside as early as possible and walk and walk. This alone is highly effective for depression, and helps balance hormones

3. Take St. John's Wort, 5-htp, magnesium, B complex-inexpensive pills that can be bought at Walmart. But give them a small bite before swallowing them to make sure the capsule casing actually dissolves.

4 Eat fish. I eat a 1-serving can of mackerel every day.

5. avoid processed food, red meat, and any meat but organic..
US farm animals are heavily dosed with female hormone to make them gain weight.
Eat fresh organic produce as well..many essential things to help you feel stable

6. Something I found out from having both male and female "modes"-females instinctively know how to control males. They don't argue with them or play victim when men act out. They simply withdraw their attention and get too busy for the man, until they are fighting to win her approval. "Real" women control men tightly..males must do exactly as females wish to gain female attention.

Not I-I'm too male. I just know because a transwoman did that to ME.

Males are often confrontive, argue, play victim. A woman who acts like a male with her husband can confuse him. Acting masculine with a male can anger them, trigger contempt because males gain respect through status.

Females with alot of male brain mapping often brag about their work-outs, walk like males, look down on frilly clothes, love politics, sports, and humor, and laugh loudly. This is masculine behavior and it usually makes men uneasy.
It's the feminine traits that attract males like moths to flames..it even works on ME.

Males have low boundaries. They often let drunk friends borrow their trucks, wreck them, bail the friends out of jail, then let them borrow the truck again. Sadly, women with alot of male hormone often have poor boundaries..allow husbands to walk all over them, abuse them, dominate them. These women yell at badly behaving husbands, confront, argue, whine, play victim, but the husband ignores it.

A "real" female would let the erring male know she disapproved indirectly, in a female manner, which males understand.
If her husband steps over the line he will probably find himself on the couch, and a find silent mate. Also, if he doesn't soon change, his clothes might be in the yard, and door locked.

But females with male hormones often find excuses for their spouses and let it go. Males do the same with pals..no accountability.

Yet most males MUST have a female boss, at least a male one-such as the military, or a boss at work. If his androgyne wife won't give him that stability, the straight male often goes off to find a "real" female who will draw the line and make him behave.

Unless the male is androgyne, with alot of female brain mapping. These men are the intellectuals, artists, musicians, writers, and they tend to not have stable relationships because they won't obey a female..

Yet a masulinized woman can't force herself to "act female" for very long at a time, and it stresses her.

Probably better for an androgyne female find an androgyne male, as my sister did, who likes to stay at home and let her run companies.

Right now, I just enjoy being single.

Dunno about the tooth.

You could google something natural and cheap to use, or go to a clinic where the prices are low.

:sunny:

 

I don't know. This sounds pretty nuts to me:
" Males have low boundaries. They often let drunk friends borrow their trucks, wreck them, bail the
friends out of jail, then let them borrow the truck again. Sadly, women with alot of male hormone
often have poor boundaries..allow husbands to walk all over them, abuse them, dominate them.
These women yell at badly behaving husbands, confront, argue, whine, play victim, but the husband
ignores it.

A "real" female would let the erring male know she disapproved indirectly, in a female manner,
which males understand.
If her husband steps over the line he will probably find himself on the couch, and a find silent mate.
Also, if he doesn't soon change, his clothes might be in the yard, and door locked."

In fact, it sounds ridiculous....

 

A lot of ideas may be imagined to be valid, as long as we excuse them from a requirement of proof.

 

I know I haven't posted in awhile. That guy lashing out at me really hurt so I left for awhile. I'm back now but still depressed and lonely...so I don't expect to make any lasting friendships on here...Depression usually pushes people away. I'm still gonna try, though.

 

Post something different, Funny, get us to respond and see if we don't build some kind of friendships with each other.
This site is for the most part, friendly, hilarious at times and even informative, I was reading something today that some smart guy posted and even commented, for the first time I posted an approval Thingy on his post cause I just figured out how to do it.
I have been on a few sites for short time being bored with them, this site is easy going and will keep you busy, at least long enough to get your mind off the ugly shit.
Try us out, forget your woes when you are here. You will see.

 

Kind of agree with what sally just said.
post on other threads im sure you have some interests and i know there is a thread for it on this site somewhere.
i have had heated arguments with people in some threads. Then you go to another thread and i will be talking to that person like we are best friends.

 

Cool motivational video I just found:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZOy0YgUDwDg"]VISION - Motivational Video - YouTube

 

Your timing is perfect. That guy came back briefly, but just got banned again. He might even be perma-banned, I'm not sure.

I think his behavior is just a product of his mental health issues. I feel kind of bad for him while at the same time seeing how ugly his behavior is.

I hope that you can talk to us here

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mPaed8I3V1A"]Welcome Back Kotter Theme Song HQ (Ending) (John Sebastian) - YouTube

 

Not trying to nag you but I'm a mom so...

Did you take antibiotics yet?

Just freaking do it if not.

 

If you are talking about the person I think you are, e, I feel very badly about it, too.......a bit shocked and scared by the outcome, too....
I went out of my way to be super nice to him and did not have any problems.

 

Who is it? Did his name start with a B?

 

I don't remember. And yeah, I did finally get some anti biotics but that didn't help for long...and neither did drinking. I can't afford to have them pulled, and my insurance won't cover it....I' don't know what I'm going to do.

I would post in other people's threads but I don't like being ignored. I may post something some where....I don't know

 

Is it an abscessed tooth?

 

I think he just got super emotional and couldn't deal with any kind of criticism.

I'm not a bit surprised by the outcome though.

 

Mmmm Hmmmm, I'd put good money on the bet that youd get bored of those feminine guys very very quickly, and you dont get on with other chics well because.....

 

^ be nice VG