Depressed, lonely, hopeless, and dying.

Glad to hear you're hanging in there. As to your problems with the psychiatrist, or any kind of counseling/therapy at all, the trick is finding someone you click with. It will be especially hard if you don't like meeting or trusting people, but you really need the help that the right person could give you in time, if you're patient and are willing to meet perhaps multiple possible psychiatrists and search. Trust me. I suffer depression as well, although it comes and goes and I don't think it's quite as bad as your case (after all, every case of mental health is different, because every person is different). I've been reading up on this kinda thing; I start therapy this Thursday, because I was made to recognize that I have a big problem, and that's a bigger deal than I thought - no one should have to live depressed. You may not be able to get a hold of someone locally, but it's still worth it if you have to travel a distance to get the help you need. Why? Your life is worth it. Don't throw it away

 

In many people it's not even religion, it's their up bringing, we are toned by our parents to think nakedness is ok or it's not but many know it's ok in certain circumstances. Underwear could be just as weird to many just because we are toned to appreciate clothing leaving us a mystery to most and not so to our close ones like a BF, wife,,, and so on. I know many who would hang out at home with their loved one naked but would put something on to answer the door and take company in for a coffee. It's just not how people want to see others and friends are important to us. But again while you wear clothes for friends you can still hang out at home naked and go to nudest areas where people would appreciate your nakedness and then you can build on both types of friendship. Naked ones are rarer then clothed ones and you shouldn't want to wait for a certain selection of friends, it will make you lonely and that's not a good thing.
I am just suggesting separating your desires so you can have both types of friends and worrying less why many wouldn't like what you like as far as nakedness. It's a narrow path but can be fun in the right place with the variety of friendships you could build on. People are just too shy about stuff like that.
In many words we are always told, pick door one, two and three except on a tv game show.

 

<< As I said over there I do put something on, usually just
underwear, but that shouldn't be a problem.>>

You may consider putting on underwear as respect for guests but it's how the other person feels that matters at least as much or you are not really with the person who is there. If your guest is uncomfortable or put off and you do it anyway it says to me you prioritize how you feel and something you are doing over the other entirely. You will never have real friends acting like that. When people are made to feel uncomfortable they don't come around. Maybe a "friendship" doesn't have to be 50/50, but uncomfortable or put off is universal.

 

Agreed, I have never had a friend answer their door in undies or naked, if it happened I would think I interrupted something and should leave. Might even by why I call first to make sure I am not coming at a bad time and I do expect my friends to call before showing up at my house. And honestly if friends did answer the door naked it would probably be a long time before I could come back just because if they knew I was coming and were ok with that so I would expect them to be dressed unless it was for a planned nakedness party, then I would have to take up weed and drink a lot before getting there.
It's too bad we are like that but we can't change it, that's how society is ---- Leave the Bday suit for special and personal moments or special places like nude beaches. That's why we have nude beaches.
And another thing, you get a boyfriend (or girlfriend) and he/she is a little shy about you showing off your body because he/she likes to keep that to themself, as his special secret, as probably most men and women do. So you can say you will wait for that special one who goes naked all day,,, but again, they might like that, lots do but bets are when that person and you are alone or at a place where it's excepted, not with company. You'll be looking a long time to find the one who is all as strong about nakedness as you are and you shouldn't pin that on yourself, find people, you need people, we all do.
I am not the kind to say go get help without saying first, find someone you can care about. Open all doors to all opportunities and grow a little with society but keep your desires too and make them work where they will. I am sure no one hates you or dislikes you they just can't handle the way you are in front of them. You sound friendly and able to communicate here.

Anyway, let's get off this thread,,, and Play on other threads, this one isn't any fun, we can do better.

 

Sorry (seems to be a shallow word) to hear that you have suffered and indeed are still suffering under the dark shadow of evils past and heartache present.
One of the Wonderful things about the WWW is however, that there is a massive support network out there/here.
No matter how we feel, how down we get - We,are not alone - and such is only a click away

 

You need to find some clarity but to do that you need to stop putting yourself down, and being insecure. Get some damn courage and not start your words by telling people about depression problems.

Depression is a part of life. We all go through it. We all question our place on this earth and wonder what is the point the fan is throwing shit.

I strongly believe that if you have the will, the will, things will get better for health and happiness. You cant sit on top of your roof with someone looking at the sunset unless you climb up high and work hard trying to find a friend. You also cant see any amazing first person view unless you walk up the fucking hill.

Views are always worth it.

So learn to love the fight in life to achieve what you want and not give a shit about negative thoughts from others, most importantly including yourself.

So stop getting down on yourself and get up and at it.

Then one day you gonna have an amazing view you worked toward nobody will understand and it wont matter that they don't. It is so worth it to you though.

 

Also problems with guys sounds to me like you should be working on other aspects of your life before dealing with any kind of relationship, male or female.

If a bad guy see's someone who has no confidence it can be very easy to use that to their advantage, which can give you a bad relationship with him regardless how long it lasts.

I think you need to look at what to focus at the root of your own personal problems whatever is most important to you and work on that.

Then other things will come.

Social anxiety though. You have got to learn to just say 'fuck it' with a clear mind.

 

Dude... before it happened upon me I would've said the same thing, and you know what, you're right, but you can't put it like that. Not yet, anyway. A pep talk like that is actually only gonna serve to worsen the problem, in my experience, because trust me, I have that experience.

We're here to help, we're here if you wanna talk. Heck, hop around hipforums, go to the chat room, whatever. Communication is rather important. And above all, please, please get yourself some real help while you still can.

 

Yes I can.

 

Unless you want to be a sad loner and have all the answers to all the forum posts and questions that weren't directed at you, I wouldn't pay any attention to what Broony has to say.

 

Uh, he didn't mean any harm, wasn't lying and catering to these manipulative and childish behaviors is only feeding he monster. He was very gentle and encouraging but there is such a thing as needing people to not just play along, but also say "when you're done plying these self defeating silly games life will still be there waiting to be lived" because all the catering is just reinforcing that you can carry yourself like that and still get attention needs met. All voices are valid, even actual detractors, because they remind that very few will play the phony "special cause I'm crazy and FRAGILE!"..... because it's a crock.
The motivation needs to be giving up latent infantility and coping with sex drives, not indulging them.
She can handle that. It's also part of what she is soliciting with all this.

People being mentally ill and needy have a real risk lately. It really is coming down to independence or institution in this country and people who aspire to independence need all the time to practice that they can get. Faced with a hard no or an undesirable circumstance you'd be amazed at how un-crippled people can get fast.

 

I'm not sure what to say to your post, Oddapple...Are you saying that people can't be needy anymore?...That's bad for me....I can't help it for being this way..and I'm not crazy. It's actually sad that you can even get lonely in this age in the first place, we do have an overcrowded planet afterall. I think there's just more selfishness now than ever...and it's saddening.

 

But the planet is full of nincompoops! It's very easy to feel alone, I feel alone a lot. No body gets me, no body understands me, I'm just trying to have some fun =[

 

:iagree: ^

yep, I find that not only to be what I think, but eloquent.

 

Lets hope things are getting better

 

Sort of...but my depression comes and goes...but the loneliness is always with me.

 

Listen to lots of music Cassandra. If you don't know many musicians make it some homework to find more. Hipforums is a great place to find artists.

and keep finding more.

Music has helped me and many many people our whole lives during sad times.

Music is the most powerful when you are alone... I think anyways.

It will soothe the soul.

 

Fuck social anxiety. Fuck agrophobia. Fuck depression. Fuck family support. Fuck lonliness. Fuck negative thoughts. Fuck circumstances. You need to take all that shit, put in a big pile and burn it. You deserve freedom, love, happiness and life. Anything other than that needs to be done away with.

 

I don't have depression but sometimes when it's quiet and no one is around I pound my favorite music and I don't feel like I am alone for no reason. It's like me time. In the back ground there is always music or TV. I also have my sound machines going on sometimes. There is one slightly making any sound in the living room doing bird sounds, can barely hear it, only when it's that quiet and one in my bedroom that is on so when I go through there I hear it. Luckily the neighbor on one side rented half of his house on my side of his property to a deaf guy who makes hardly any noise himself and the neighbor on my other side is an 80 year old deaf lady. The people across from me are gone lots. Music is a wonderful thing when alone.