Describe your current mood...

19 and 26 sounds alright.

 

I'm content, got some tea and a smile.

 

Tired. Not just physically, but mentally, and whatever other types of tiredness exist.
Sort of, January is nearly gone, and I'm thinking... "I dont want this year to be too much like last year..."

 

It's not that I see anything wrong with it, just wrapping my head around it is all. I've always preferred the maturity of women a bit older. Even when I was 19. I've never found the qualities I see in her with anyone her age.

 

It's complicated.

 

A bit irratible

 

Other than wrestling with a kitten that keeps walking on my laptop while I write I can say I feel happy today.

 

Happy that I can eat now as I had a blood test this afternoon which required a period of fasting beforehand.Just a routine blood test for liver function,diabetes and cholesterol.Hopefully everything will be okay.

 

worried and stressed out, so much family shit going on. my dad is still drinking he is drinking to the point all he does is throw up

 

My current mood is, quiet before the storm. I am sitting here, half-procrastinating before I go out with friends to some sort of meeting for Americans/foreign people in Brazil.

I am psyching myself up to get out of my comfort zone, socialize, appear normal, and leave home at such a late hour for an old boy such as myself.

 

I'm stoned

 

somber and patient.

 

Sober.

 

Accomplished

 

moody

 

not good at all my elliptical is not working. my mom tried fixing it but she was getting pissed saying I can't deal with this tonight.

 

erm...okay, i suppose, but a bit down in the dumps.the reasons are below, if you wanna be bored by 'em

had a four hour lecture followed by a two hour lecture, which you may recognise as being a shitload of lecturing. not sure how i feel about the four hour. it was my first of a new course, and while i'm very very interested in the subject matter, its a fucking hardcore course, the lecturer even told us at the start of the lecture that around week 6 , the course becomes basically too hard for people at our academic level, and i can tell from the reading list that this is gonna take up a shitload of my time.

one of the other courses i started this week seems okay, (one three hour lecture) but everyone else doing it has done 2 and a half years of that subject and i've only ever studied it in passing, for about 3 weeks.

all this is making me kinda nervous and unhappy about the rest of the year. i essentially chose two courses that i was interested in knowing that it was gonna be massively difficult, instead of courses that were less interesting but that i was more confident of a good mark in. given that this is my final year and marks really fucking count, maybe i should have taken an easier course. i'm nervous about graduating with a shit mark after spending all this money.

plus i'm depressed because my social life is very minimal at the moment, i've lost contact with quite a few old friends over the past year, and while i still see them on occasion, i seem to find it impossible to reconnect with them in any meaningful way,the time elapsed is simply too long, this was the case a few days ago, and i'm still pretty gloomy about it. plus, my best friend got a boyfriend about a year ago, and has since more or less completely stopped contacting me, so i have no-one to bitch and moan at/with. and i have no fucking clue what i'm gonna do with my life after graduation which again, makes me nervous as fuck.

please forgive my dull venting.

 

Stressful to say the least. Hang in there as your courses will sort themselves out. It is easier to accomplish grades in something you are interested in than something you just take.

Maybe once it settles down a bit you can start to try to socialize more, that might help.

My mood is rather mellow but in a good way.

 

Sad

 

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