akuna matata, that i can understand, sometimes you just have to not worry about some things, or try not to, (though its never entirely safe to not do so), but its the other part, if you don't care about something, isn't it kind of self contradiction to feel compelled to tell everyone else that you don't? where does the motivation to say so come from that isn't a self-contradiction of the claim? yes i over analyze everything, and often have a poor grasp of humor, but that's what my paranoia is, of the risks of not doing so, which i've frequently found to be quite real. the plus side is that we live in a universe that is rewardingly stranger then we are ever even capable of realizing, but that reward depends on not closing our minds to it that we do. i know that must sound like some kind of religion, well maybe in my mind its more what i believe in then anything that's called one. so i don't mean to spoil someone else's fun, but i just fail to understand the fun of people pissing all over themselves, and then imagining, that somehow makes humans some kind of anything. nature makes strange shapes and in my ignorance, making strange shapes too, is in tune with what feels meant to be. the unknown has a kind of vecerial solidity, just not a form dictated by the limitations of human perceptions. the only reason i know why i'm saying this, is to not be robbed of it by the distracting demands of people to know that they don't care, about infinity only knows what. its really at the core, by not giving a fuck is how we fuck up everything about which we don't. and i want to live in a universe that we don't do that to. and the way we don't do that to is to not hate logic that is inspired by universal consideration. i know i'm stupid to not let this go, but i felt like i had to explain why i feel the way that i do about it.
