Drug attitude

As far as depression goes, I'm more able to reflect on it and target things that need to be done, self-help wise. I've had treatment, but refused all meds. My doctor was looking into running tests for unipolarity/bipolarity, but I freaked and never came back. Some mistake my cynicality for being depressed or overtly sarcastic, at times, when I'm not. I don't know if it has anything to do with that, but my teacher-friend-dude said that after two years of having me, my signature or what stood out was that I always seem to quote Benjamin Franklin and tend to come off hyperbolistically sarcastic in my writing... So, I guess it can be beneficial at times.

I prefer to take the good and the bad as it comes. If we had a pill for all, there would be no reason to do anything... but that wouldn't guarantee it to work--merely it's potential/capability. Side effects, you know.

The pharmaceutical industry is ridiculous. I try to stay away from having to see doctors/get prescribed medication or antibiotics.

 

I've never touched anything outside weed/hash in my life, and I don't plan to. I don't have a problem with people who smoke weed, unless it's excessive and they begin to base their life around it or something like that. To me, there's a big fucking difference between people who smoke weed and people who are potheads. I can't stand potheads. As in, people who talk about it and that's *all* they talk about.

Never had any incredible experiences with weed, but I've had some negative ones. Some reeeeeally negative ones. I haven't touched it in about three months, because I just start to feel out of control whenever I do. I mean, sure I've had some good times high, and I'll probably have a few more in my life, but for right now, I personally just don't need it.

I'm not a tobacco smoker, if that's considered any kind of drug, I used to have the occasional cigarette though. There's a few people who are really close to me that smoke, but I can't change their minds, and they know the bad aspects of it just as well as me. So I leave it alone.

I'll have a drink now and then, and that's about it. Drugs are just a waste of my time and money. If I have an epiphany of some sort, I'd rather just be in my right mind, instead of being scared and confused.

 

i didn't even say anything slightly on topic, did i? i liked reading everything you all wrote...

i only smoked for a year, and only once in a while, and now i'm done... i'm a better person after being exposed to the different people, culture, experiences, and new ways of thinking. but i don't really think i've changed too much from it, really...

ecstasy changed me A LOT. if i had to take back every drug experience and forget everything i learned except for one, i'd keep my first time on ecstasy. because of it, i know how perfect and beautiful and pure everything is, that there is love at the core of everything, everyone, every thought and desire... that we're here on purpose, there is no such thing as randomness... it really profoundly affected my life. i used to be an athiest, and i'd get the most fucking terrifying panic attacks... i can't describe how horrible they were. almost every night, unless i fell asleep watching a movie or reading or otherwise distracting myself, unless of course, the movie or book triggered it, which happened a lot... screaming until i physically couldn't scream anymore, running aimlessly through the streets and woods until i fell down, crying and shaking until i passed out. people would come to my house and ask if everything was alright, thinking someone got shot or something. since that first time, i haven't gotten a single one.

i can't judge drugs as good or bad, or say that i think people should or shouldn't do them... you either do or don't, and "drugs" is a really stupid blanket term for tons of different things that bring you to tons of different mental planes. personally, i'm probably never going to go looking for drugs, searching for a visit to a particular plane. but whatever happens, happens... and i'll try to squeeze all the knowledge, enlightenment, love, truth, whatever, out of every experience...

 

I had the same thing happen to me, before... though I was never an athiest. I was more of a gnostic who explored buddhism and christianity at the same time, leaving certain gates open for exploration.

Now I'm more of a christian unitarian... I had a string of panic attacks and was a bit hypomaniac last December.

 

weed is fun.
shrooms are too.
salvia...is interesting.
peyote, never done it, maybe will.
LSD...never done it, if it comes my way in good circumstances, perhaps.
cigarettes...never touched one.
alcohol...im in germany now, so naturally i have beer...but i dont drink very much, perahps a beer a week. except for ocasssion of course.

anything artificial and chemical and not natural i think is just not meant to be consumed. including artificla ingredients in food.

out of the psychedelics, weed is the only that I think one can do daily and be OK. its a casual drug. but you could NEVER do shrooms every day, thats bad fgor the head, and salvia is way too intense (not even THAT good, but if you get a chance, its worth one try id say), peyote is supposed to be cool, but is also ont he same level as shrooms so id say only to do it not so often.

Ive gone thru phases with weed. I started, and for two months i smoked maybe 5 times. then i quit for 6 months, well, not really QUIT, i just stopped doing it, and then started for a month, then stopped because I got depressed, then started, and have been doing so for the last year. it was usually a once a week, or less thing, then at the end of the schoolyear it was almost everyweekend, sometimes multiple times a weekend, and OH! sometimes even TWICE A DAY!! but now, its just kinda whenever i have it.

last summer it was EVERY DAY. literally. wel, except for maybe 4 days. but you get the point. and it was fun and i dont regret it- i still occupied myself with activities.

now i do it a couple times a week. somtimes i skip a week. just kinda whenever it happens.