Embarrassing Facts About Yourself 2

Well in my case, I did pay attention at all the lectures, and DID study. So that is what bugs me. If I didn't do anything to help myself, I wouldn't be so mad. It would simply be my fault then.

 

i switched from advanced english classes to general english classes because you only needed advanced for university and was satisfied with college that only required general english credits...i failed the general one and had to redo it lol..

 

I am not going to my extended family's Thanksgiving Dinner (how ironic...) because I recently 'parted ways' with my graduate school program and I don't want to be pestered about it. My aunt and cousins LOVE to find anything about me to dig in at, so I want to avoid the resentment and anger altogether.

I plan on seeing my grandparents (whom I love dearly) the day before Thanksgiving however. I told them about not coming because of 'their daughter' and they understood me haha.

 

The only thing I think is worthwhile about life is being in a committed relationship. Yet I've never even had one in my life or come close to having one, really. >.< Though I do have an upcoming date with someone I really like, so this is the closest I've ever been.

 

Im very white

 

^I am not very white, but I have an obsession with my skin color. I constantly examine and compare the color of my forearms with other people on a daily basis.

My 'problem' stems from the fact that I am 100% British Isles decent (English and Irish). I am particularly dark skinned for being of that ancestry, more closely pigmented to say the Northern Italians or Northern Spanish people. But since I encounter white people from the Mediterranean at the University I work at, I get terribly frustrated because I am not the darkest anymore out of all of the white people. In my hometown, which is populated by mainly Germans, I was always one of the darkest white people even in the dead of winter. Now I am not.

That is my embarrassing fact for the day.

 

I am also of british decent lol. I got stuck with the whitenes though. On my mothers side they are from germay and if i stand next to her it is like night and day.

 

i have a paranoia about my weight, i think i am way too skinny...

 

Get some protein powder. It helps a lot. but dont use them as a meal replacement. Also start lifting weights

 

thanks for the tip man, never thought of that

 

yupp no problem. I used to work out a lot in hgh school but than stopped. I started going t othe gym again a few months ago and within one month i put on about 3 or 4 pounds just from working out 3 or 4 days a week and some protein.

 

hell yeah talk about efficiency, i am so going to start a thing to gain weight

 

When I play the question game for a while I start asking questions in other threads too.

 

what kind of questions exactly?

hahah :2thumbsup:

 

You do it too? lol

 

oh no are we accidentaly starting to play the game in this thread?

 

I continue to sleep with a guy that only hurts (emotionally and unintentionally) me because I desperately seek validation. I'm addicted to the pain of it. The joy lasts a night, the pain for weeks until the cycle starts again.

I've slept with other people for the same validation. Not because I enjoy the sex (which I do with the guy I mentioned above) but because I'm so insecure and self-conscious that I like knowing someone would be willing to sleep with me. It always leaves me feeling dirty and empty.

 

I talk to myself a lot, even when I should be paying attention to smth else, like classes. I tend to fall in love with people who don't see me. I want to have more that 3 kids. I have a soft spot for anything Irish, redheads, tall, pale, dark-haired, green-eyed boys, Gale Harold, the colours blue and green, autumn and Jim Morrison. I may have failed an English exam today, and I actually thought my grasp of the language was good. I tend to act awkwardly when meeting new people. And the list could go on...

 

instead of washing blankets I usually just throw them out and buy new ones

same with pillows

 

I'm 5'2 and is over weight for my height