Extreme Sadness

new year's eve felt peculiar for me too
It felt very still and calm kind of like... eye of the hurricane
I guess this could feel like emptiness and lacking life too? Sort of depressed.
But I think it's nice. Perhaps I'm just crazy, but I also notice other people who pick up this 'overall mood' too whether or not they are realizing it and it comes out in their demeanor. Like at a party I went to, everyone did seem 'more open to new' and were expressing some new energies. Like they had all been a little more centered, lost a little of that feeling of 'chaos' that would constitute to 'bustling of life' and were looking for something else. But I guess thats sort of the mentality of a new years party? It's over, time for new! Hurray!

It's pecuilar though because I went through these emotions most strongly near the equinox, the feeling of clearing out the old. And things like this always seem to be a product of astrology, waves and phases of the earth. So I wonder, why does the 'overall' manifestation of this feeling resides on the calendar marked 'new years' vs the more in tune with the earth 'new moon' cycle? I don't know. I think it's something people might start doing more as we near new times, they might start celebrating based on the true astrological cycles vs just 'holidays'. Because I do notice that the whole feeling of 'clearing out the old' seemed a bit foreign on new years.

 

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