extremely jealous

firstly you shouldnt be jelouse . for your own sake . it isnt fun. ...... but your instincts could be speaking to you about the way things would end up .....personaly i dont think forbidding things or people is the answer .....the forbidden and unatainable whatshername , holds a fetishized lure double to what she would otherwise . keep yer eyes open and if its like that , then demand on open relationship and a poolboy and sugardady .....you and nick could have lunch saturdays ....

 

*hugs retro* thank you sweetie. You're right.. I do have to stop telling Nick what to do and whatnot. I do it a lot, and today, he even told he was tired of being in a "dictatorship" relationship.. kinda joking, but still. I don't wanna lose him because of my lack of trust and jealousy.. I know he loves me, inside, I KNOW it, and I know he wouldn't cheat on me, or lie to me about his feelings for her. It's just.. hard.. and I am so fucking impulsive!! Sometimes words get out of my mouth faster than I think them, if you see what I mean, and I've hurt him and others that way... and I regret, I really do. *sighs* relationships.. relationships!

I'll try to be more cool about it. Gotta learn to be.

 

lol

thank you for the advice