Feeling so dissilusioned

Da Vinci didn't have internet anyway, lol
And discussing things is childish?

 

lol, thank you.

 

it's because of this attitude that your life will suck

 

He didn't finish his projects because he would get bored with one and want to do another. I think he had A.D.D. But you could be right too.

But as John Lennon says: Time wasted, if enjoyed, wasn't a waste at all. I don't remember exactly how the quote went but it was something like that lol.
So its possible this man isn't wasting time.

 

That's part of what I was trying to say.

You must have had pretty good insurance to start on Lexapro. Good results on this end. For many people it's one of the least problematic in terms of side or unpleasant effects. In my experience, the good that's been done through SSRIs for people with depression and anxiety disorders (including PTSD) so far outweighs the bad they're not even in the same universe.

The question is, how to get unstuck or become more resilient. Def good to get out of debt. Maybe a good idea to go back to the psychiatrist (even hippies get the blues).

Did you spend some time on the Erika Lopez clog? Have a look at the suffering section in 2008 - whew. She really knows a lot and is very aware.

 

Things that people have that they don't need that help keep them in debt:
- cable tv
- new clothes
- new or almost new car or (if you're in SF or Boston or another place with decent public transpo) maybe don't need a car
- a bike that costs more than $200
- special shoes to run or walk or whatever
- fries and soft drink with your burger
- organic food only (or even just shopping at Whole Foods)
- cigarettes
- another tattoo
- bottled water
- a nice apt or house - need to be safe, but there's no happiness in paying more than necessary for shelter
- and of course A CREDIT CARD! KILL IT, KILL IT NOW!!!

It's your life! Get it together. You only get one chance.

 

Well, when a kid in high school has great potential, that's all that is. It's mostly technical ability, the ability to mimic and blend other artists' work and a little creativity.

An artist turns life into art. This stuff that you're feeling is stuff you need to turn into your art. This is how art can save lives. Whatever you're experiencing, at any moment of your life, put it into your art or your understanding of your art.

God or Karma or your parents gave you talent, and now you've got to use every bit of your world and your life to mold yourself into an artist. Don't give up! The work's just starting!

 

Standingseated says it beautifully. Words to live by, except for many of us, instead of art (in most places), you could substitute passion or deepest beliefs or something along those lines.

He not busy being born
Is busy dying

 

CALL DEBTERS & TELL YOU'LL GET BACK IN 6 MONTHS. Then pack bag & hit the road. U need a break.

 

the only way to stand out is to be yourself and say/write exactly what you mean- screw the prevailing views/notions!

fitting in is not where it's at
put on your cosmic black hat
and let it reflect light

 

I totally agree with Shale, you can make it happen. I turned my life around from a always working and being stressed to slowing getting out of debt and working toward a goal of doing my own thing. Now if I want to work, it's part time. Not because I have to,but, because that's the way I want to. And by not oweing, the money is mine and not the bill collectors. I live my life simple and truthful, not by others standards. You can do it, don't give up!

 

You are stuck in a hole. You can not see the light at the end of the tunnel.. things look dim where there is no Light..You have simply lost your Muse, your inspiration.. sometimes artist/writers ect. have blocks of their own making.. your so busy hating things your creatablity is stiffeled.

You manage to find time to post about your unfortunate circumstance but seem unable to find the time to create. Get up off your haunches and go for a walk, sit on a rock, under a tree, take a stroll on the beach, climb amountain, go to a playground and watch the children play, see their smiles, hear their laughter.. whatever.. just get up and do it and write/paint it when you find yourself again.

DO NOT TAKE PILLS, THEY ARE POISON.

Get your mind set on the natch, otherwise your view will be distorted bc of the chemicals influencing your brain. You have to re-find your Muse.. dont block it will selfpity, you are in control of your own distiny.. If you hate your job, you will never feel inspired. Find a job that isnt so demanding.. It takes years and year to become sucessful, rarely does it happen overnight.

An Artist writes/paints for themselves, what they feel inside, not for others or fame but bc it is inside them and it must come out. That's why they are called struggling artist bc it is not easy unless you have an unlimited supply of money coming in.

Where there is a Will there is a Way. The first step is always the hardest bc your either procrastinating or scared of failure. Stop thinking about it so hard.. it's blocking you. Try counting your blessings and you will find grace.

Find your Center and just be still. Inspiration will come.

Bright Blessings on your journey
sh

 

Clothes,cars ,houses,bills,fancy or common,ya only really get three meals a day,(if your lucky and one if your not).turn and walk away for society.



Freedom first

 

Thank you for this bit of advice, I've been doing all of this and you've definately helped me

 

Sappho-I'm new to the forum-and an old hippy-I started reading your thread and wondered how you made out.

Listen man, life is what you make it-I know it's a cliche, but it's true. Advice is cheap I know but it's helped me.

Set goals for yourself. Make them small, short term and achievable. They could include:

Set time for yourself-everyday-get up 30 minutes earlier-it'll give you time to plan changes and impliment them-use that time for you

Write-everyday-even if it's 5 minutes to start

Have you made a financial budget? figure out what you spend your $$ on and eliminate those unnecessary expenditures. Bring your lunch and a thermos of coffee to work? You'll eat better and save money

Don't like your job? If you clean up what you don't have to spend and give it 6 months using your extra budget money to pay debt down, you could then look at changing jobs to something you like-

Spend time with people who do what you want to do-join a writing club

in 6 months things will be different.

 

Its funny you should mention all that.
While I was away for a while I did just that... got up early, planned my day. Gt my finances under control. Went to school and became a Certified Nursing Assistant, and I have an interview for a job coming up now. Tonight I'm going to a poetry slam.

 

Good job man.

Peace

 

Da Vincis greatest contributions were in regards to Anatomy, some less well known to the masses.

So you are talking about emulating a guy that spent a lot of time in dark rooms slicing up dead bodies.

I dont think he was quite right in the head, like most geniuses

 

Not to say it can't or won't happen sooner,but getting older changes lots of things in a positive manner. I live below my means,and buy nothing on credit. Don't really give a rip about a new car,my old one is fine. Two cats I love,and I live near the sea for very little money. I love the scenery,walk,ride my bicycle,shoot pictures,go to classes about our environment,wildlife,etc. I'm happier now than I ever was back in the day with the big bucks corporate job. Next summer I might clean a public bathroom in a nearby park in exchange for a place to park my old motorhome rent free. Or not. It gets better,sometimes you adjust your expectations,just be organic about it. Look around at the now-there's not a dress rehearsal you know!

 

Yep. Growing up sucks, doesn't it? When we're kids, we have these dreams and aspirations, that to us seem reasonable, if we dare call it that. But we rarely look a what we want to do as "this is the way to make money". As kids, unless we have parents that really give a damn odds are we're on our own finding a career. Finding a way to make life like we want.

Honey bunches, I learned that first hand. I had my dream, and Ilived it ever since I got out on my own. And ya know what? It has been one hell of a hard life. My dream was one career, a beautiful happy life, retire wealthy with a beautiful wife and lots of happy kids in college.

Chasing that dream has me, at 40, disabled and unemployed with a 10 page resume summarizing all jobs I've held since I was a kid (trying to get another contract job), and royally screwed because I don't have any retirement set aside.

Sometimes you'll have to set those dreams aside and work your ass off to make ends meet.

Do what you can to get out of debt. Make sure your car is in good shape. Make sure your health is good. Stay away from drugs. Go back to school and pick a money making career with a future. Save your art for a side job. If you try to rely on art for income you won't like where you'll end up. Have a good paying job to support you and your love.