first love is hell

In my book, if it is painful and confusing then I am "in love". Being in love is very hard to handle for me and I can't see what's happening until much later, after the mad rush has subsided. Does anyone know what I mean?

 

i know what you mean darlin

my husband is my real first true love, even though i have been in serious relationships b4, i never felt the way then as i don now and it is bloody hard.

ive become so emotional, jelous, paranoid.... all the bad emotions... and the hardest bit is trying to control them. xxx

 

Yeah..what can i say, first love sucks when it ends but is probably the best "ride" you ever had and i don't mean that sexually. Mine ended 4 days ago when she told me she doesn't feel anything for me anymore , I’m still very sad and depressed . I'm trying to forget.,my mind is coping quite well I haven't shed a single tear but my body is reacting strangely. I don't think about her during the day but at night I have horrible dreams about her with another man in you know what way and when I wake up every morning my heart hurts like hell and I’m suffocating very badly.. I almost collapsed one morning ... heart aches continue during the day but are less powerful as those I get every morning. I want to forget I don’t know how….. I also get smoky vision when I’m thinking about her. I get it even now as I’m writing it feels like the whole room is filled with smoke... I can’t take this any more . She just tossed my whole world upside down .

 

Hey, it's a bastard but there is light at the end of the tunnel.
As Sting [bleh] said: If you love someone, set them free!
Proper love should be jealousy free (in the ideal world ) just relax.

 

im still trying to get over my first love, i was with him for 8 months. And i was with him almost everyday, he was my best friend, and then it ended one day because he started to change before that and well i dont wanna get into it. but our relationship ended almost 6 months ago and i still think about him everyday, i still love him as much. love is a bitch, but i cant live without it.

 

Been with my first love for almost 3 years...seems im more in love with him now than ever before! Its hard work but well worth it!