gay sexual fantasies

to be gangbanged by every popular black male pornstar.

 

I might've written something like this before but deleted it. If so I think it's worth writing again.
I have an occasional fantasy of doing gay porn. The thought of me being naked on record getting fucked by guys, kissing them, being into them and them being into me, for other present and future men, and women, would be an interesting and sexy way to come out! I'd permanently be on the internet forever as a queer for everyone I know and future generations to see. It would be a monumental act of acceptance of my attraction to people of the same sex.
Plus the thought of so many men getting off on watching me get laid and spilling so much cum and possibly many women too would honestly be very gratifying to me too. I would love to hear from all those people. That would be part of the fantasy.
Also that could be effective advertising for dates. Watching men desire me on film and online could make men desire me in real life. It could be really helpful for my gay slut journey.
In my fantasy this wouldn't be a commercial effort but I'd want to put some effort into it. I'd want there to be some kind of plot and some kind of artistic meaning not just sex. I think it would make the whole thing more erotic and honestly meaningful. Plus it would attract the attention of people I'd like to attract the attention of. Then again there is something to be said about getting right to it to the soundtrack of a cheap synthesizer and ending with a money shot on my face.
In reality porn and your sexual history don't prove anything. Porn is usually just a job. I hear guys who start off in porn these days start off doing gay porn no matter their orientation and "work their way up" as if straight porn is a promotion lol. And even if you enjoyed being with someone of the same sex once in your life it doesn't mean you always will. In other words your sexuality is always subject to change.
On the other hand there are those who truly believe especially with guys unless you're 1000% heterosexual and you've never, ever, ever even thought of touching another guy even hypothetically you're GAY, GAY GAY! Those are the kind of people I actually don't care to make an impression on, except maybe to educate a little.
But this is just a fantasy! So the circumstances and consequences of making and distributing images of my homosexual pleasure are based only in my imagination. And boy what an imagination it is!
Any guys care to join me in that imagination?

 

I have a new one, I’d like to have sex 5 days in a row with a different guy. I think it would be so hot to do that. Will it happen doubt it but fun to fantasize about.

 

These are fantasies.
Being a 6teen yold high-school and having sex with men: uncle on my mom's side (I don't know why that make a difference), married next door neighbor (mid 50s), my best friends dad, my married boss (I work part-time at his art store, 30 something catholic priest (once again only fantasy, I was NEVER abused in any way by anyone), small group of my uncles friends. I've always had a thing for athletic older men. My wife knows all about my sexual experiences and fantasies and approves, plays along and adds to them. She likes thinking about me at the beach turning on a college lifeguard during the day and then us meeting him on the boardwalk at night and encourages us the blow each other under the boardwalk where she is sitting directly above her. Only she ca hear each of us grunt out our cum. Then she kisses me when I return and she can smell and taste his cum on my lips. We enjoy watching gay porn together

 

I intended this as a journal entry but I think this would fit here.

For at least one night, maybe even a weekend, I want, and need, to be in the middle of several men. This will take place at the house of one of the men, or in a sleazy motel room, or in a cabin in the woods. I want and need these men to strip me, not only of my clothes but also my identity, name, autonomy, dignity. I want and need to stand among these men and feel empty, ashamed, vulnerable, self conscious, embarrassed, humiliated. One of them will hand a collar to me and make me put it on, a sign I willingly submit my body and my will to these men. Lust will grow in their eyes as they gaze at me in my state. I will be referred to by degrading names like cumslut and fuckmeat. I'll answer to them and be ridiculed for doing so, and be made to write such names on myself, again as a sign of my willingness to participate in this. They'll paw at me and sneer as I uncomfortably try to back away from their advances, but eventually they'll subdue me and tie me up so they can easily take turns fucking me in the mouth and the ass. They'll say degrading things while they're fucking me, like how I'm a filthy slut who loves to be filled with cum, and in between blowjobs they'll make me say it. I want some physical pain too, so I'll be expecting a lot of spanks while I'm getting fucked too, if the pain of having dicks constantly being put in my ass won't be enough lol. I want and need these men to abuse me and take advantage of me physically and emotionally. I want and need them to make me cry like I've never cried before, and to keep on fucking me and making me say what I am that night over my tears. And I want my crying to make you perversely desire me more. I want to be completely disregarded as if my needs are not only unimportant, but also nonexistent. In the end I want to be covered filled with the cum of every man there. I want to be thoroughly exhausted. Most importantly I want and need to be broken.

And maybe one of these men will be kind enough to spend some time afterwards offering me some aftercare and a shoulder to cry on (some more). Maybe a Daddy type that would make sweet love to me.

 

One fantasy came true and i'd love to reopeat it again.
I wore a gorgeous wedding dress with sexy lingerie for twelve men who all took their turn screwing my girl entrance before each one came inside me.
The dress was ruined.
Another i've partially had happen,groped in public on a busy train where he came and i walked through the station with it running down my leg.
Next time i want to be groped before he pushes his hard cock in before cumming deep inside,zipping himself up and walking off.
Even better if there were a group of guys ready to do the same one after another.

 

My list can be long and varied, depending on my mood.
my wife knows of my suck buddy from my younger days. At first, she was quite shocked, but the idea grew on her. We went through a phase of what what I can only describe as a sexual Renaissance. We were experimenting in Several different scenarios. We had several MFMs With a trusted close friend. One night I was laying on the bed next to them, watching her or early worship his cock. She saw how intently I was watching, and eventually held up his cock, offering it to me! She wanted me to suck him, I wanted to suck him, but he was extremely straight,. I did not want to ruin the vibe that we had going on in case he freaked out, so I didn’t. Later, she asked me why I didn’t, and I explained what I had just said. he did have a very nice sized cut cock. Also during this time we delve into anal and pegging. She really got off “forcing” me to suck her strap on, and then having me assume the position. She suggested that we look for a bi guy for a MMF that could have us both. we looked, but never found an appropriate unicorn. DAMN IT!
Offer somewhere in this timeframe I met the owner of the salon My wife had been going to for years. During one of her appointments, I happened to be in the area and stopped in. a very nice shop. Wife introduced me to the owner,….. a very pleasant man about my age, (40’s back, then). Anyway, I went home, and when the wife got home, she seemed a little perky. She said the owner commented that I should make an appointment with him, so he could “gay me up”! I did need a new look, so I paid him a couple of visits. he was quite “hands on”. I know I was tenting under the frock. he had a nice apartment upstairs in the salon, and I kept wishing he would take me up there and make love to me. Damn I wish he had.
Another fantasy is a MMM, where I get spit roasted. Wife and I would role-play that while she pegged me and I was sucking on one of our dildos. Of course, in our playing, it was always bare. When she said she was going to come in me, that always set me off.
Oh well…. all of this was pre-menopausal. Now nothing. if my wife would give me her blessing, I would give myself willingly to her/our friend. as someone else said, I would want to be made love to, and not just screwed.

 

For me I‘ve always wanted to be attacked in my barn (with or without my furry suit on) and be used in all my holes while my horses watch.