I'm pretty much done talking about it I'd be surprised to hear that you have any friends considering how annoying you are
Sorry for making your brain hurt Perhaps it will also surprise you that I can have such discussions with my friends and anger will never come about.
I'm not angry, I just think you seem to be an irritating person and I bet you have trouble with relationships don't pat yourself on the back thinking I am sitting here pissed off
Romantic relationships, correct? Well, right now, I'm not sure what is making my current relationship feel so unbalanced. It's either because I love/care too much or he loves/cares too little.. I have to find balance somehow. I don't like to blame him for our problems, I blame myself. So, yeah, I'd say I'm pretty shitty at making it work unless I just avoid how I'm feeling completely, heh. But I love him enough to ignore my mostly completely unnecessary want for some attention or a compliment.
When I was younger I never had any real connection with the people I got involved. It was all very superficial, I like you and that's it. It was fun and then it turns into boring because there's nothing especial going on between you and this person. So all my relationships would end rather quickly. Now I'm bored with most of the people I know, I just dont find them to be mentally stimulating and it's all really dull and repetitive. There's actually a FEW people that I actually enjoy talking to and spending time with. I find it more difficult to relate to others and I think it's because I've changed so much and I feel that most of my friends are just the same. Sometimes I wonder... is there such thing as too easy? It's complicated interesting?
i'm good at relationships, too. a good relationship does require effort sometimes, listening when you don't want to hear anymore, talking when you'd rather not. those are the hard parts. patience is not my strength. you've gotta think about what comes out of your mouth, really understand what's coming out of their heads and make judgement calls and intuitive leaps. i nurture my relationships, i work hard at it. and i've been very fortunate in finding the people i have in my life and makin the effort to keep them there without inundating them with clinginess or over-protectiveness. though with dave it's a lot easier. apparently i just have to not be a bitch. surprisingly, that's kinda easy for me. (no scoffing, it's true. i'm a very nice person.)
I've never had a friendship or romantic relationship last. But then again, I don't have much experience being close to people since most of my childhood was spent either at home without much mental stimulation or at church, being brainwashed. It's only in since my late teens that I've started trying to form relationships with people. I guess you could say I get bored of people, but more it's more like I'd prefer to be alone most of the time. There's only a few people I can really have a good time with, and that would probably be my brothers and my sis. How fucking pathetic is that? It's trust issues, and anxiety and depression, and other shit. I do have friends, but I don't know if they will stay. Perhaps I'm not stimulating enough for them? Or maybe people need to not hang out all the time. Maybe it's okay to hang out every few months, because then you have more to talk about. But I dunno. It's depressing. I feel like I'm losing friends right now. And I know it's because of mistakes I made in the beginning. But hell, I wish that they could see I'm trying so damn hard. But I don't think they wanna give me a chance anymore.
I grew up in mostly a non-transient area, meaning I grew up with the same people so you learned that there is always more to learn about someone and that you don’t have to rush and get to know everything about them in one day. The more you are with someone the more little nuances you learn about them. Such as you may know from day one that their favorite color is Blue, but did you know they think Yellow M&Ms taste better just because they’re Yellow? And now you save the Yellow ones just for them because, well the Red ones really taste better anyway. I don’t know about you but I don’t get bored with an old pair of Jeans because just because they’re old and about to wear out that’s when they’re just starting to get comfortable. So why throw away old friends just when they start to get comfortable? Keep them forever! It might take some time and effort but it’s well worth it. As for the word bored, I grew up in a house where that word was never used. It has always been a word that others use and I understand it but it I never really know what it means. I mean if I were to sit real still saying and doing nothing I would still be fascinated by the million of little things going on around me and if that was not enough I’d make something up!