I dont wear make up [except on special occassions] I dont drink or do drugs. None of that... And why? Because I AM a control freak. That's the whole point. It's really unhealthy, I know this... but I've ALWAYS been this way, and I'm not sure that I CAN change it, and IF I can, I sure as hell don't know how to. This is why I struggled so many years with an eating disorder, because I have self-control issues... And, when I went vegan, my eating disorder seemed to subside, just ...seemed to have gone away, because I had something else I could focus my attention and control on. The only horrible thing is, if at any time I misread or misinform myself and slip up, I beat myself up over it, because it's such an issue with control. Don't get me wrong, I went vegan for the animals and environment, and I did so without knowing it would have an effect on my eating disorder...it just did. Which is a GOOD thing, but it's still unhealthy for me to obsess over ANYTHING no matter if it's a good or a bad thing, and I know this. But if you have annny suggestions, I'd be glad to hear them, because it's something I've been sort of struggling with my whole life. It gets to be a nuisance... a nuisance to have to be so hard on myself in order to keep myself feeling happy and decent.
