Have You Ever Been With Someone You're Not Attracted To?

let me put it this way; being close to anyone has always been more a source of anxiety then comfort. i mean there was comfort too, don't get me wrong, but i was neither happy nor unhappy, if that makes any sense. the time i'm by myself is always the more "quality time" to me. i don't wish ever to be unkind or hurt anyone, but that's just how i am and how my feelings are.

when i was young and horny and unsatisfied, that always bothered me, but then the sex thing, when it was there, it really never changed anything.