This thread disturbs me on many levels. It seems to me like Alexa needs help, asked for it, and then people overreacted a little, and of course she got freaked out when she realized how fucked up her life seems from her post. In all honesty, you will be happier sober, or at the very least, much more sober than you are now. If you have to get high, smoke pot, but even that can really mess with you if you do it too much. Surround yourself with good people, people with goals and interests and love in their hearts, and you'll feel a lot better.
