I think you are just really picky (like me). I also have a fettish for cock, and backsides. But i just can never get full gay unless he is smaller than me, and has girlish features. I love small, thin Women with arched feet (foot admirer, Non-fettish). If i could find a guy like that, i'd marry him! You might want to shop for "bi-curiouse" dudes first if you're just looking for a cock to play with for now. Gay guys want more from you than that. I'm a bi crossdresser. I'm looking for a petite guy with a perfect body who also dresses-up. I guess that makes me a lesbian/gay guy huh!? Are there any shrinks here who havn't jumped out a window yet? Heh
I'm sure no-one is born gay, but our sexuality develops all through our life starting from birth (possibly even earlier), just like all other aspects of our personalities. No-one can decide to change their sexuality just as no-one can decide to suddenly stop liking the taste of their favourite food. Though, one's sexuality is always in motion, and can alter even in the latter stages of life. Oh yeah... hi.