How are you?

I'm a little groggy from smoking hash oil late into the night, now I'm off to check out a drummer dude I met last week, hoping he's got some chops. I'm feeling fairly positive about it.

 

I lol'd too.

 

happy

 

I have had the most severe toothache for over a week now and have no money for the dentist, and to top it off I don't have really any idea to what is causing the pain. But it feels like someone is trying to pull my tooth out with pliers which had made me not be able to eat, sleep, or smoke as i usually would :'(

 

Yeah, well, am I sorry I lost it last night?...Oh, yes I am! ....but hey, I am human, but do not lose it too often....at least....Onwards.....don't want to look back too much.....no one's fault, and I lay no blame....things just did not work out.

 

Perhaps the person was too busy to send you a card, moonglow? Sometimes, life happens. I wouldn't take it too personally!

Er, never mind, I can see that this discussion has been had.

I'm alright, anyway. Enjoying some nice red wine and some really great company after a long day!

 

Looooong history....She is much older, too....and I was always confused and lost looking for the person that I thought cared about me, and not understanding her riddled language....is all....She made me believe she did...at one time......it was just messed up....whatever it was.....The closeness or bond we shared once has been missing for the last two years. I tried to fix it...and kept blaming myself....wondering what i did wrong, and I messed myself up doing that.....

Anyway....it is over....cannot go back....I wish her the best of everything!

 

I'm pretty Goddamn high and in a peace and love mood.

 

I agree. Much better to give with no expectations. In most relationships, that's the kind if thing that's better to let slide.

If someone is discussing something that is painful to them though, it's not very nice to lol.

well, it's still not very nice.


I've seen worse though.

 

This thread reminds me of a joke. What to psychologists say when they meet each other?

Hi! You're ok, how am I?

 

I'm in an uncomfortable place right now and riddled with insecurity, but apparently that's when we grow. So we'll see. This could be a gift.

 

It can be a gift Shivaya.I've just come through a very rough patch recently.Insecurity,anxiety - the whole caboodle.But you can come through it,and when you do,it feels great.Keep the faith.

 

well, you could spill the beans if you wanted to

 

I am in not such a great mind set right now

 

Nothing to spill really. In love with a girl who is commited to her school more than she is to the relationship. She used to be madly in love with me, then she started school, and now I come last. I respect the hell out of her, but I miss her, and to feel like you went from being someone's priority to ''on hold'' when she lives with you is enough to drive you insane. Especially considering the fact that she lives with me.

I've never felt so insecure, jealous, threatened, untrusting, and upside down. That's not me - I have NEVER been like this in all my relationships. So now I'm learning to live with discomfort - and I'm learning to love with not guarantees of being loved back. I'm starting to think loving with no expectations to be loved back is the meaning of truly loving someone.

 

Talk to me buddy. I care about you.

 

did she actually say something like "I used to be madly in love with you, but now that I've started school, meh"?

It could just be that the level of work/ concentration required to get through school is distracting her. The intensity of relationships also has a tendency to settle down over time.

Sounds like in principle you'd be ok with her focusing on school for a while, but maybe you could communicate that you'd like a little more from her, and a sign that she'll have some more time from you once she's done with school.

 

I'm in a really good place right now. My little home business is thriving. Everyone in my household is healthy and happy. I have a lot of love in many different forms, coming at me from a lot of really great people. All of my relationships are stable and content with very minimal conflict. I'm emotionally and physically blissed.

Life is so good.

 

I'm good. I've been in a bad spot the past few weeks, I've been in a rut and feeling like I've been spinning my wheels but I am feeling more optimistic now.

cheer up wollin!

 

Good for you Mama. I was in the same place, like a week ago. I care too rollin' I don't know what happened to you, we don't talk anymore.

Melial, could it be the weather. I think we're somewhat close and I know it's done a number on me. I was doing really well last week, with work and in general, but now I feel completely not myself. Like I'm having an existential crisis and also feeling really lonely. I almost deleted my fb, but I did delete almost everything from my timeline and all my pics and I am just not communicating with my friends and family, but I want so badly to just have some chill time with someone fun...someone who really gets me. I only know one person like that in the town I live in though and it's just not that easy.

I'm starting to think I should force a social life on myself.