How are you?

At least half of my friends are druggies...This is becoming a problem...Thinking of upgrading my phone tomorrow and getting rid of some numbers,some people I don't want trying to fuck up my life and leach my money.Just gone them out of it.Yeah,I'm definitely going into town as soon as the shops open and do that.I mean changing my number.A hassle but I've got to do it.

 

*sending out love and good vibes to everyone in a rough spot right now."

Lawd knows I've been there plenty of times.

 

I generally do get down in the wintertime, not to the extent where i could call it SAD (seasonal affective disorder) but I definitely get run of the mill generic lowercase sad. Do you usually find your mood plummets during the winter?


I know what you mean about being social, its really difficult when you absolutely don't feel like being social but you also know that the lack of a social life is affecting the quality of your life. I haven't really felt like being social for the last two years. i used to be a really social person so I feel like I should just force myself to get back out there, catch up with old friends and make new ones.

 

You are a sweetheart. I sensed that anyway, and thank you, but it is really ok. It did sound a bit odd, I give the lolers that...Thinking I was upset over a silly card....without knowing the full ebodiment of it....when I knew it was just a final note...Knew it awhile but refused to believe it....but honestly...I don't know why I ever did now....care that much...LOL....

 

very well

 

I'm in love with my new therapist.

 

Melial...yes I do get the blues in the wintertime. I've learned how to work really well against my triggers...it's not just the cold/lack of sun, but the fact that those things make me want to stay inside more and I can't do a lot of my favorite activities. If I create a routine and still stay outdoorsy and active in the winter, I end up being okay. The thing is this year has just been so damned dramatic and much colder than usual, where I live. Plus snow and icestorms, etc. Also, the few friends I had in town moved, etc.

Rainy, I think I've fallen in love with every therapist I've ever had. And by love, I mean lust.

 

No, she's just less focused on the relationship and more focused on school. I myself have more time to focus on the relationship, so there's a lack of balance here. My OCD goes through the roof and I just ruminate and cling, which in turn pushes her away, which makes me more insecure and untrusting. It's all a vicious cycle.

I try my best to keep things together.
It might not work, because rowing alone just makes you go in circles.
Like in every relationship, I do the best I can, and if it doesnt work out, I'll have a clean conscience about it.
Not to worry - Shivaya has been up, down, and everything in between, and I always seem to pull through.

It's just nice to have some folks to lean on once in a while.
:love:

 

Wonderful!

 

Just chillin', killin'



Hotwater

 

I got the new phone.It's a Nokia Lumia smartphone.It's on a contract but will still work out cheaper than my old pay-as-you-go.It's my first smartphone.I got a free Kindle Fire tablet with it.Got a new number too and have deleted all my druggie contacts.

 

Sleepy. I could use a nap, but I have a lunch appointment at 16:00, so yeah.

 

Nice goin'...sometimes ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

 

how am i what? i am, i dream, i make pictures.

i seem to have been sneezing a lot lately, for more then a month now, but not accompanied by sore throats or fevers, that would indicate any sort of flu or cold.

i can think of at least three things that might be causing it, and its probably the combination of all three. my housemate's hookas, the cat's lighter then air shed fur, and the fumes from various solvents and finishes i use in my modeling.

i'm also sleeping at odd hours and in two shifts, neither of which is all that unusual for me. pretty much i'm sleeping more or less at the same times as the cats do. and of neccessity they are indoor cats. there's just too much vehicular traffic around, and if let out into the yard, they would still get out into the street.

the cats and the dogs all seem to be well. as for the other two humans, they spend a good deal of their time away from the house, which i hope they enjoy, as i rather enjoy the peace when they're gone.

 

Can't sleep. ! What are ya'll doing?

 

I'm not sleepy but it's only 11:19. Just watching the olympics, women skating

 

I damned near hit a deer tonight... the county road is all icy and slushy, miserable for normal driving, but very sparsely trafficked that time of evening so I decided to have some rally racing fun with my little box racer. (geo metro lol)

I dropped a gear and nailed the accellerator, bouncing and sliding through the ruts and drifting through the turns, yee haw!. Just about the time my subconcious told me "watch out for deer, dude" one appeared on the side of the road ready to to lunge in front of me but she hesitated at the last second and I made it by her. Whew! I better cool it on the Ricky racer stuff, thats enough adrenalin for a while lol

 

Just watched freestyle skiing. Wow

 

I watched the canadians defeat Sweden in curling. Not sure how I am supposed to feel about this!