I don't have any desire to kill or hurt anyone but it certainly wouldn't bother me to hear of the demise of a number of people.
I went over my resume, and what I found confirmed I can't do it. 13 years 3-1/2 months as a rescue tech, 2 years as an associate pastor...I value life too much to be able to take it. To take away from someone something that I cannot give back...? If I steal your ball cap, I can give it back- "Here, have you cap back". But if I blow your brains out...it better be no other option, because I'm gonna have to tell Jesus how and why I did it. I can't scrape up your brains and pour it back in your skull and then glue your skull together and call it good. Just doesn't work.
I walk away and find peace within myself. The mental consequences of committing such an act are more than I care to dwell on.:hippy:
ah i saw all 3 of your edits lol Its natural to have these feelings. I take a step back and do something else. I don't consider it, or think of it any more. I just remove myself from it. Once calm, the rational mind doesn't think or feel the same way.