How do you feel about your Dad?

I miss Insane Jester terribly. I wonder how he is doing in the army.

 

I got banned once, long ago because I told him to "die in a ditch" and someone reported it.

 

I am coping pretty well. I went on meds afterwards and started gaining weight (I had always been really thin before this) to kinda hide according to my old therapist.
Seriously, if my body was able to be 500 pounds I would be 500 pounds. I eat whenever I feel people are checking me out or whenever I feel someone invaded my space.It's really bad
quote=silver rocket;4841072]I am so sorry, that is so horrible! That's beyond horrible, that's evil, and even that word isn't bad enough. What an unforgivable thing to do to one's child (or to anyone). I hope he will suffer for what he has done. How are you coping with it nowadays (if it's not personal)?[/quote]

 

I have very mixed feelings about my dad. I haven't seen him for 17 years or so, since he walked out on my Mum. I used to be very angry with him for deserting us, but now I'm calmer. I'm actually curious as to why.

I hate some of the things that he did when I was a kid. I used to get some serious beatings, but I also know that mostly, he was trying his best to raise his kids to know right from wrong. He just didn't know any other way to do it.

I respect him for how hard he worked to ensure that 6 kids didn't go without, but I don't respect the fact that he just turned his back on us, shirked his responsibility.

I would like to have an adult conversation with him, get to know him as a man rather than just a memory of a Dad.

 

No I haven't even seen him since '96. But I'm going to go see him next year.

 

Nah hed probably be drunk so he wouldn't feel anything anyway.

 

the more people i meet, the people my dad knows, i get told of how similar i am to my dad.

he's been my dad and my coach...so yea, he's been great

 

my dads a great person, he suffers from MS (multiple Schlerosis) and he has had it all my life. for a long time, i would take care of him. since mom would be full time working, and sisters would have school. after a while though, he had to go to a nursing home. i coped with this horribly, but i visit him there, and he seems to be happy.

 

I'm sorry for the delay in response, I was feverishly studying for midterms the last couple of days. Ah, so you use weight as kind of a protective padding? I don't know whether or not this will help, but have you ever taken self-defense classes? Because maybe if you saw someone looking at you or felt like someone was about to invade your space, the confidence of knowing that you could rip them a new asshole (pardon my French) would make you feel more secure about being near someone who may potentially invade your space, and you would not feel the need to hide?
Maybe that's a silly idea, sorry if it is.