How many of you are cutters?

I used to cut when I was 10, but I got counselling. Then I started when I was depressed in highschool, again, had counselling. I stopped for quite sometime. But I confided in a boyfriend that I used to do it and he got SO mad. "I hate people who do that, I never wanted a girlfriend who does that". It made me feel horrible, but I said that I would never do it again. I was over it. Well, the boyfriend became meaner and meaner and abusive, and I was trapped in that relationship. I was so depressed. I started cutting, I was so good at hiding it from him, because I was so depressed I would never even make out with him. I would sit in the bathroom and cut, and it would be a release. I think that everyone has some sort of crutch, whether it's alcohol, or drugs or T.V. or church or cutting. I cut. I haven't cut since I broke up with him and got counselling again. I've been feeling pretty depressed lately and been having the urge, but I've been very good at fighting it. It's like a drug. You know how good it feels, and when you want to escape you get the urge to do it, but it doesn't fix anything. It's just a band-aid

 

You people are crazy.

 

And people who are nasty and rude don't help. For the sake of helping others with this problem, if you're not going to say something constructive please go elsewhere.

 

It really is a constant battle...I used to cut myself when I was in highschool. I stopped whe I was about 18. But even now when I get really depressed, I get the urge, and sometimes its REALLY hard to make that urge go away. So far though I have been able to. I know you all have the strength too, just just need to find it inside. I know its hard...but it can be overcome.
Much love,
Sasha

 

my best friend used to do it

and alot of other people i know do it

i understand it ... but i dont think it is a good idea

my friend got councling and his councler anoyed him so much he just wanted to do it more...but he just stuck by his friends and finily quit

i dont have to wory about ever doing it because i never get mad or upset ...because i have mild schizophrenia and it makes me always think happy

 

my best friend does it, and my sister does too... i wish i could help them, it hurts me to see them hurt themselves....

 

I tried it once because I knew a bunch of kids that did it...didn't do much for me though.

 

Yeah, i've a friend who does it (well, a few actually) - one time i got pissed off and made them sit down whilst i cut my arm from my elbow to my wrist right in front of them, the whole time they were telling me "stop, don't do it, its stupid, what if you injure yourself!!" - i don't think they realised just how stupid they sounded.

The bottom line is if you are needing to do this then you need help. Now, for some people the only time they get that help is when they go too far and seriously injure themselves, some other people aren't that lucky - imagine coming home and finding a blood soaked bed, with a dead teenager on it, doesn't matter a fuck to whoever finds you if you weren't actually meaning to kill yourself, and these accidents do happen, no matter how careful you are. And of course some people do just grow out of it... but, there is always that risk.

Although I do understand it, i find it one of the most selfish things a person can do.

 

*cringes* Selfish...I don't get why people say that...I think the person who tells them to "stop because I care" is more selfish...

 

I do think it is somewhat selfish to do, but when you're a cutter and you're hooked on whatever it is that makes you feel better when you do it, your judgement is clouded and it doesn't matter who it's hurting, yourself or other people. Even if you love the people to pieces, you can't stop cutting yourself for them because it's something you can be too attached to to give up.

When you come out of that stage in your life (some people do, some don't I guess) you realise that there are better ways of dealing with your emotions than expressing them physically, in ways that don't hurt other people so much.

I can only speak for myself, but that's how it felt to me. Oddly, I don't regret what I did because I've learnt a hell of a lot about myself and the way people look at me as a cutter/ex cutter/'normal' person.

 

I kinda cutted myself, but then my best friend started doing it and like I spent most of my time trying to get herself not to cut that I guess it just felt pointless. Oh and my friend is getting meds and seeing a physcartrist.

 

No am not a cutter but i know someone who is and i think there is other ways to deal with your anger or whatever you are going though please get help that is not good

 

A guy on my dorm floor over the past year was a cutter, he later got taken away to a psychiatric ward cuz he was becoming suicidal (he's better now).

I don't mean to be insensitive at all, but I really can't understand why people cut themselves. I mean, there are thousands of less painful ways to sublimate tumultuous emotions. But I guess it's relative.

 

people who call it selfish don't understand. People cut to relieve emotional troubles...people also cry, throw fits, yell, scream it's like saying all of those are selfish. Although i think cutting is a horrible way to do it, it's not fair to call it selfish.

 

Of course it's selfish - doing something that is entirely for yourself, the only way it effects other people is detrimental, be that through worry, or god forbid, having to deal with someone who has gone too far - tell me how that isn't selfish....

When you do an act that is purely for yourself without taking into account the feelings of others then that is being selfish.

Ya, cos worrying about someone is selfish, i forgot that.

Anyway, I don't tell people to stop for because i care about them, i ask them to stop because of the effect it has on others.

All you people who cut yourselves just think how your parents would feel if they knew, or your grandparents, or just anyone you care about - cos doing that and not thinking of the potential consequences for them is selfish - imagine them finding out by coming home and finding you in a blood filled bath, white as a sheet.

Most people who cut are in denial about the potential dangers, "its harmless" is often heard from cutters, "it doesn't hurt anyone" is another one, "its not doing any real damage" is another. Well, go and cut yourself all you want, cos one day you'll go to far and you won't be able to cut yourself again.

 

I don't cut myself. Although I used to when I was about 10. Then I stopped. But now it's just been like a constant battle between beating the shit out of myself and trying to rip off my flesh. It's hard when dealing wtih bi-polar. It feels good, then it doesn't.

I remember one time earlier this year I was having an attack and punched myself about 5 times in the side of my face where my temple is. I heard you can kill yourself that way, but I didn't succeed I guess. But my face was bruised for over a week. I told my mom I tripped and fell. Hmmm. Alright.

I've also struggled with ed's since I was about 4 years old.

 

i wouldnt go so far to call it a selfish thing, most people who are serious cutters do need help, not to be called selfish.. although i must admit.. even if it does make them feel good, it hurts me.. but thats probably a really really selfish statement! lol, 1 reason why i wouldnt call cutters selfish

 

I cut very often back in 9th grade; I was suicidal once and tried to take the edge off that feeling with some cutting and happened to cut nearly 1/6th an inch deep. Course, I'm better at coping now, which is why I resorted to it in the first place. But that scar will never go away, scared myself that night, put my blade away right quick.

 

i once carved the number 4 into the back of my hand with a safety pin....does that count?

 

I once carved and ATN into my left forearm.