I am going to kill myself.

ummm ok..... how can you not like music?.... I think that's highly doubtful.

 

Suicide is a permanent solution to a Temporary Problem!
Get some Therapy and REAL help instead of trying to put a band aid on it here!
YOUR life is NOW HERE not NO WHERE-It's how you use the letters and it's all up to you! Wiz Hugs to Ya!

 

"So live your life that fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no man about his religion; respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and of service to your people. Always give a word or sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, or even a stranger if in a lonely place. Show respect to all people, but grovel to none. When you arise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life and strength. Give thanks for your food and the joy of living. If you see no reason to give thanks; the fault lies in yourself. When your time comes to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with fear of death, so that they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Live you life so that when you sing your death song, you will die like a hero who is going home with no shame to meet the Creator and your family."
Tecumseh "Shooting Star of the Shawnee"

 

I know people who find music irritating. They prefer silence. That's the way some folk are, just like the opposite

 

I've known a couple of people who didn't like music too. I don't get it,but variety's the spice of life,I suppose! They should hear this rasta album I've got playing right now ...
Lizard,you're probably not gonna do yourself in if you haven't in 31 pages,but you're obviously an intelligent person to have a relative degree of emotional honesty at what I hope you don't mind me saying is a fairly young age.That gives you the scope to have a life of real depth.But the dark side'll always be there and you've just got to learn to live with it like the crazy twin who walks beside you. That's just how it is. But the people on these pages are right, the apparently hostile ones as well as the caring,constructive ones.When I got depressed my girlfriend stopped listening to me and made me get counselling.It didn't turn out to be a magic solution.but it helped to get all the shit out with someone who knew what to do with it.

 

Man, blue is tough to read on my computer, but I agree. There is a sensory input problem in our society today, I've read some articles on it. We are bombarded by constant and ever growing sensory input, much more than our ancestors. It can be a real problem for some people, processing all the sights, sounds, interruptions, information constantly. I think I suffer from it to some degree.

 

Some people are over sensitive. For instance, those who have blue eyes are affected by the suns light more so than those with darker eyes.







Lawyers don't want the truth, they want their version of it

 

Sensory input problem for those ignorant enough to watch MSNB Squeeze or Headline Cooze or gullible enough to believe all the horseshit flashed in their faces everywhere they turn.

It's pathetic really, the way some people buy into all the horseshit and pattern their lives after what thay are told to think and feel.

Blah blah this and blah blah that. Latest research study this and latest research study that!

A person needs a strong sense of self and a determination not to be lulled into false beliefs or allow the emotions to be manipulated in whatever way may serve the purpose of self serving shitheads who have no one's well being in mind other than their own.

 

And what pre tell, is up your butt?

 

Dude, there's half your problem right there. You don't like ANY music? To me, that equals disturbed. Maybe you just haven't been exposed to the right kind of music. I would hope that's the case. You like any jam bands? Classical? Jazz? Classic Rock? Anything?? That just shocks me to hear when someone doesn't like MUSIC. Any music. Music is like the center of my life, I don't know where I would be without it. I consider it one of the most therapeutic things ever. You should give it a try. Maybe listening to some aggresive death metal would help you get out some of that teen angst. I know it helped me channel a lot of negativity and anger when I was a teenager. Just blast some slayer at full blast and yell your head off. Or maybe get a taste for what other people's lives are like that are probably ten times shittier than your own, and they still go on living.. and you wont be so depressed.

I'm usually pretty positive when trying to help people out.. but it seems to me like you just want to be this way. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. You have a self-defeating attitude. If you tell yourself you are going to have trouble getting into a relationship, you will. If you tell yourself life sucks and isn't worth living, that's how you will feel. Thought creates reality my friend, start thinking a little more positively, or at least neutral.

I know exactly how you feel because I was there once in my life too. Except I was living on the street, at 16. I didn't have any food to eat, *thought* I didn't have any friends.. I thought life would be much better if I was dead. But I was very wrong. Besides, if you kill yourself, it only makes things ten times worse. Not only do you completely devastate the people who are close to you, but you'll reincarnate starting right off where you were, and have to learn from the same lessons, only they get harder.

My advice is that you learn from your lessons now, and overcome them. No matter how bad things may *seem*.. they are only temporary.. nothing, no situation is hopeless. Life is full of ups and downs, and you just have to ride them out and make the best of every situation.

I don't know how close you are with your family, but I suggest you spend some time with them.. because they are the ones who can love you like no others.

Other than that I wish you love and light, be strong for yourself and for those around you. Live life because life is worth living. It will pay off in the end.

 

Well, agreed, but what does any of that have to do with differing levels of sensory input?

 

Nothin' but it's an interesting convo at the very least

 

I am so angry.

 

It's going to eat you up inside until you decide to let go. For me, i got to a point when i had enough and tdecided to accept things. I still am accepting things and it's still hard but you have to move on. That's the only way you'll be fine in the long run. You have to realise, the only way you're going to have a future is to make the decision to have one, it's up to you.

 

I am so fucked.

 

Why's that?

 

Hey there, not everyone who is depressed and speaking out is doing it as attention getting. it can be a real call for help without knowing what the heck is going on with them.

there isn't only emotional depression but clinical depression. When its cilnical, its not for attention but theres a genuine brain disconnect. In other words, there is a part of the brain where the neurons and synapses dont meet. This doesn't make them crazy tho, and no one should put them down. Theyre just frustrated, trying to figure out on their own what the heck is wrong, why they are different from other ppls.

Usually medicaitons required. Theres natural stuff too. Harvard studies showed the 9-12 grams of Omega 3 oil (flax seed oil) has worked as well as meds to rebalance people with manic depression. Its worth a try!

Give it a little time to kick in too. Don't quit right away. allow it time, about a month, tho read it worked in less for others. Just dont do some half ass job than complain it didn't work.

watch what ya eat too. Sugar can make things worse, junk food ditto. Vegetarian is best. Now u have a solution. Now its up to u. done. good luck to ya.

 

http://www.scumpa.com/~art/whitetrash-mar03/

 

I don't think he much minds the natural stuff and i guess i'm kinda the same. I'd rather have a more proven substance. Depression meds tend to take effect after a couple of weeks, then depending on if it's working, it stays at that dose or goes to a higher one. It's up to him, he has a lot of knowledge and support given, all he has to do is take it. We can't do anymore except go around in circles.

 

I have a wig like that ;-)