I don't get it

Batz Marru!!!

 

Not for nothing man, but didn't I read here somewhere that she's a stripper? I'm sure there are a lot of nice strippers out there with a good head on their shoulders that simply do it for the money. I'd imagine many more of them are just a little bit wacko upstairs - few sandwiches short of a pic'a'nic' basket

 

I'm not sure which category she falls into. She's morally sound(depending on how you view stripping I s'pose), and she's got good goals, but at the same time I suspect she's a pathological liar :&

I don't know. I really just need to never talk to her again, me thinks....... but it's fuckin' hard.

 

pathological lying is not particular to her. its all of them

 

I guess I better get used to it.

 

get the hell over it. You are so incapable of doing all of the above? Thought you had a cell with a back up replacement. Thought you always posted about how to be treated.... I could puke. Live it or shut up.

You are not whole and then stay at home a be looked after. You will always be a professional student...under your parents wings. Grow up. Nah instead you will always be a professional student or get your MRS degress. Too damn funny.


Then stay at home and live in your little house and save us the bother of reading about it again.




QUOTE=lynsey]fuck it could be worse you could be across the country, walking in the pouring rain, suitcases in tow, sick as a dog and in a city where people are too high to find a fucking phone book and no cab company is open or answering...yeah but sorry about your girl dude but she seemed a little fishy from the begining and with her profession I don't think things would have worked out[/QUOTE]

 

Let it go as then it was not meant to be.

Wishing you healing and I hope that the next person you choose is deserving of what you wish to contribute and have as a realtionship.

Take care of you.

 

Like I said... the hardest part is the 'why?'. I mean what's seriously wrong with me. Not that this scenario has happened before, but this type of general situation always hits me, and I date very different types of women. I definitely don't go for the same type every time.....atleast it doesn't appear that way until this part.

 

I have no answer for you. I wish I did.

I do not think that there is anything wrong with you....instead I think that there was not a honest meeting of reasons here.....as in your reason for seeking to deepen this was not the same as hers. Has nothing to do with her profession other than maybe why she chose it.......that is hers to do, not yours.

I could say that she was not and is not ready for that but that is not a help to you nor will it as this point in time.

Sometimes where we are draws to us what is...not what we really need and instead it is just what we attract.

I do light and that means we draw what we attract....so the answer is in us. You shall pull what you project.

Now you can tell me to bug off.......in a nice way.

Simple and complicated wishing for you a journey into you and the final solving of what you project and find that will make you happy and whole.

I am so very sorry that this happend and I hope that you are going to be alright as then you will heal and move on to where you will find someone who will love you as you will love and care for them..


Take care
Heather

 

funny before I saw this post I was going to thank you for the advice you offered me a few months ago.

No one has the rgiht to judge how long I need to 'get over' what happened or say that I should forgive somone. No one knows what my past issues are that that just brought up all over for me.
And yes I will be a professional student or have my degrees and mrs degree I have no desire to take care of myself. I have insane professional desire but no as far as living alone away from my mom unless I had a husband no desire at all.
ANd there is nothing wrong with thte way I live life I am happy and content and lucky to be alive and living here. I am so damn geatful of all the support I have in the world-family's beautiful.

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wait Heat you're an older lesbian;aren't you? just a simple yes or no will do

 

I never said it was about her profession. I supported her profession.

I try to project honest, loyal, and kind. Yet I seem to attract fake, and I think I've figured it out. Karma in a way, but not really. I'm a bad person who tries to be nice, and I guess that is what I attract. If you would've said this to me yesterday I would've said there's no way I project what I pull, but no matter how kind I try to be it's appearant who I am. Even though I'm trying not to be that

I will ask you to please not personally attack anybody in my thread but I do appreciate the somewhat deep conversation, as this is what I need.

I'm not sorry. I know I hurt now, but she came into my life at this time for a reason. Our meeting had a purpose and even though this ending hurts, deep, I believe it was necessary for that purpose to be met. I knew from the first couple weeks she was sent to me for a reason. In fact about a week after she told me she wasn't looking for anything serious I told her, "No matter how this ends, I think we've met for a reason". I will never think otherwise. What she said to hurt more than anything that anybody has ever said to me hands down. It cut straight to my core, and that's because it was true. It opened my eyes, and without question I needed to hear that from somebody I trusted and believe in as much as her.

 

No.

 

Out of respect for you, I will leave the other comments I would make to another poster out of your thread. As you requested it.


I think that she was in a different place than you. Her needs were different.

I am very pleased that you can state with the honesty you have, that you do not regret meeting her no matter how it turned out. That is a healthy place to come from in ones self. It means you did meet for a reason and that you are taking with you.

Sometimes growth comes from the most difficult situations that we deal with or face.

Perhaps that is what you are to take from this. I have a feeling that you already have and are.

Take care of you.

 

water seeks it's own level. people do the same. we all grow through experiences. you're not a bad person, but you see yourself as one, and maybe other people see that's you're conflicted about it. you now have one more experience, bittersweet, to add to the rest. you're probably going to have to go through some more personal growth before you attract the sort of partner you really want. probably need to stay out of the game for a while, get your priorities and self respect. never settle for less than what you really want out of life, and that includes your partners.

 

Thank you.

We are at different places both emotionally and in life. I knew that from the start but I thought I could live with it. Not too long before things blew up Friday night, I told her I thought I was inlove with her and she told me she wasn't inlove with me.

I realize now I'm not, nor was I, inlove with her. The fact that she was such a bright spot at such a low time in life, and the way she gave me drive, made me mistake my infatuation for love. I don't know enough of her to love her. I think if I knew enough of her to be inlove with her I would've known she was capable of what she did Friday night.

I've always felt that personal growth comes from rough times and essentially mistakes. That is why I show no shame in talking about my wrong doing. I feel it has made me who I am, and in many ways I am proud of who I am. She has simply given me insight into yet something else I need to come to terms with. She has started me back on an honest life.

 

Thank you Adam as you know I've been ultra sensitive lately and I needed that. I think all the toxins coming out of my body are making me vunerable and like I said in the pm have perma pms

 

and I still think A.... is a bitch and made a HUGE mistake. and as far as KC's water comment she is right but A... sank and you floated. That's what happened so float on brother

 

I really didn't see myself as a bad person until after what she said. I know it sounds like I'm letting other people second guess myself, but what she said had almost too much truth to it; if you know what I mean. I saw myself as a better person than I am, as whole. I still stand by the fact that I'm a true, loyal friend who will help anybody, but a I haven't been a 'good' person in quite a while now that I look back at it.