I feel trapped

No, it's not an opinion about your external circumstances since I don't have enough information. I just got the sense from your post that you came into touch with your feelings and motivations. It's easy to project our feelings onto our environment and blame geography for our problems.

 

Well, the environment and geography is definitely and irrefutably part of why I am less happy than I was before. That may have a lot of root causes in my psyche, but at the end of the day, if those circumstances were different things would be better.

I still believe my feelings were, and are, legitimate. I might be in my home country, but it is not where I belong. There is a lot to be said for belonging. And the people I encounter are generally not on the same wavelength as I am, or even close. Generally.

But the despair is gone, motivation is stronger than ever, and I can see the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. Thanks for your input pal.

 

I understand what you're saying. It's the same thing with me and wanting to move out of New York. You're welcome and I'm happy you got your mojo back. Good luck.

 

And that is one of the most wonderful self-realisations anybody can have.

Cheers to you.:cheers2: