I hate him so much that...

Ahahaha omg yeah i need him... he just came over n threatened to pull out the cable (puter), which he might soon cause I refuse to kiss his ass so he pulls on my hand n almost pulls it OUT... whatever.. it still hurts.. yeah I need him. LMFAO. Bitch is gonna get his. I HATE guys who do this shit to girls n he refuses to accept that he has faults... and most importantly I DONT LOVE HIM. I DONT LOVE HIM. I DONT LOVE HIM.

that right there is all that matters.

he wont leave me alone. he's off for three days. i told him i dont love him so im gonna have to sleep with eyes wide open but fuck him... i even wrote on the wall... if im dead... dan did it... really small. hahaha.. for real. he DOES scare me but i COULD kick his ass. It all just depends who starts it n has the element of suspense.

 

I need him. I don't need anyone. Well kinda this one guy but I don't even need to live with him... I just need things as they are now, ya know? And money... yeah I need to get mine but ummm it's just money.

 

You need someone like him, because he puts up with your drama.

 

Is there a new guy?

 

Bullshit.

Ever think to flip it around that I'm filled with drama cause of him? He means nothing to me. When I was with my best friend finally the other night... it's like night and day..smiling, laughing... totally different... to assume Im dramatic without knowing the root cause... which I am coming to believe is the issues I deal with with him... it just bothers me, considering I've never actually talked to you... but I realize when he is not involved I am mellow. Shrugs.

 

It's not even a new guy or anything like that... I just finally got to meet someone that I talked to for six years on here that nothing has ever changed with... Just me, around these two diff. people is night and fucking day. Seriously. Now come on, I know you can dig who I mean...

 

awww aint that sweet,,.. you an soaringeagle finally hooked up..
youll make a lovely couple...

 

I think you mentioned Mike in some other post, but I dunno who Mike is

 

you really dont kozmic? he's been around since before i was...

hhb.... (one letter way btw...), hilarious but ummmm no no no no no no no no

 

humm, all that agitation..
.. I smell relapse in a few days....

If you dont know how to sign into a shelter and get on with your life then nothing more needs to be said....

 

I'm not gonna sign into a shelter and leave my cats n my stuff... I start work this weekend... I'll be okay...seriously... til then I have hella good memories n can draw on walls... don't know how i am gonna get thru this weekend though... i got sleeping pills tho from rehab... that will make me SLEEEEP.. i can use them.

 

fuck them cats and stuff.. you goal is to start over, Cats die and are a cheap ass excuse for you sticking around......
PPL your age abandon property all the time.. Ive done it 1/2 my life just picked up and left... fuck that house, fuck your stuff, fuck him.........

The only way your going to get a new life is if you leave yours now...

 

I am not gonna debate how important my cats are or should be to me. They are my babies. Period. I know what I want to do..which is move out... It should take me a month or so to get the money... in the meantime he knows if he touches me, I'll kill him.

 

drugs are drugs... Remove yourself from that enviroment and you will not need drugs..

 

Well, tru dat.

I do see the difference when I'm not around him... espiecially when I'm HAPPY... night n day... really.

 

if you already know what you need to do then just do it...

 

I'm just kinda oblivious to a lot of stuff that happens. I still have no idea.

 

I don't wanna speak about the "dead"... I used to talk to him alllll the time on here.

Yeah I gotcha Orison. I just made this thread cause I was drawing on the walls n he was flipping but it's just cause a control freak... Just gotta get the money... can't make it appear today... once it "appears" im on it.

 

I really don't know you LuckyStripe, but you need to make your changes now!

My nephew is a crack addict and for 25 years it's been I can handle it and I'll check into rehab next tomorrow or next week. That been for 25 years. Now he has congestive heart failure and at 40 he looks like he's 60.

Do not fool yourself, an abusive relationship can be as addictive as crack. Get out and get out now no excuses or 25 years from now you be saying as soon as I have the money or the new cats I have now I can't leave them or I'm too old to start a new life.

PS After an abusive relationship do not start a new relationship right away. You have been damaged and need to heal before you'll know what you want in a relationship. If there is someone waiting in the wings for you, let him wait. If he's really the one, he'll give you time to heal. You do not want to go from one abusive relationship to another; it'll only make it harder next time.

 

Thanks. Not sure what else to say. It's true n sad.