The same rule applies and it would be more than a great mistake, as you grow older, to hate or disdain either of your parents.
Some parents don't deserve love This isn't a case of that. But parents don't deserve love just based on the fact they had sex one day.
Parents deserve your admiration and respect regardless of who and what they are in this life and you will figure this out one day, whether it be now, in between, or later on your death bed.
So the crackhead parents that leave their children home alone crying do? The father that rapes his daughter? The mother that's an abusive alcoholic?
What you are espousing are extreme examples, yet nonetheless, they are still your parents, being only human and more than deserving of your forgiveness and understanding as long as it risks not your personal safety. Get it...
more people than you realise say and think these sorts of thing at some points during their lives and it is often directed at the ones closest to us... it is just a matter of learning how to deal with your anger and that takes time... just know that you are not in any way responsible for her death... if that were true, there would be many more parents dying... you didn't mean it... you were just angry and didn't know how to deal with it then... natural... peace